When you first start adderall...or vyvanse....or focalin, you feel amazing. You feel physically and mentally twice as strong as you were without it. It could pretty much cure any ailment, if you felt kinda sick, pop one, energy. Also, it made you great with social settings, and even college work.
After too much use and ab-use, what do I get now? Since i switched to Dexedrine (nice mental boost imo) - I get a steady flow of energy, wanting to do work, and socializing is completely optional, the aspect doesnt thrill me or anything.
it has lost its therapeutic and recreational magic. Now its just you: with adderall, when before it was like SUPERYOU! You didn't think "its been 45min did this shit kick in?" you KNEW it kicked it, because at 1am you could go outside and play basketball, and make phone calls to people who were tired.
None of that anymore. From amphetamines for me are pretty much like coffee now. It gives me an energy boost and alertness. An extra oomph, as it quasi boosts your self confidence (it does, but comparing to the past, you see how different it is). I can get some work done, and I do okay on it, I guess thats what it was meant for after all right? Just lost that damn feeling that you always want again, and its very frustrating being ON amps when you just simply cannot obtain that feeling (without risking your life). Snorting got old, chewing xr tabs got old, and the amazing feeling was with us for so long it stopped being amazing, and became the new normal. Hence when you stop, and your "real" normal comes back, you feel like crap. ah well rant .