you guys are ALL amazing (well 60-70%)
I'm gonna try this. I just got on here on Sunday, it's Thursday now, I was following doctor's orders (d'oh!) & taking it sublingually, scrip for 12 mg/day but i got such great (i thought) results from only 8 mg that i just stockpiled. i wasn't sure why, but i did -- now i know!!! i know this is the wrong thread, but still. . . i started snorting on monday -- err, tuesday? can't remember. i guess sunday i didn't take my second dose of 4 mg sublingual, & monday i took only 2 mg sublingual at noon, then snorted about 3 to 4 mg at night -- WHAM! it was that euphoria that's been gone since i got on the bupe in july. came home late monday night, snorted 2 mg more, & was up all night enjoying the newfound benefits. i had bought the "party line" that the nalox would make insufflation useless, but i sure discovered the BS in that bit of propaganda! i LOVE LOVE LOVE snorting stuff, i know the BA ain't as great but the psych benefits are fantastic, and technically i'm FOLLOWING DOC'S ORDERS, just not the ROA they tell me. . . i know it won't last as long, but they keep filling my scrips & i'm pretty sure i can get down below 2 mg a day once i can wrap my brain around the fact that those tiny little lines are like a 20 mg OC. . . not exactly the same, but good god the trouble i went through to get the OCs, plus the trouble i got in BECAUSE of 'em, not to mention the fact that i'd keep doin' em & doin' em & doin' em -- you know, buy 5 of the 40's, cut em up into quarters, tell yerself they're gonna last 5 days, & then day three at 4 p.m. i'm selling LP's at pennies on the dollar just to score a percocet. . . sheesh. i'm bummed about spending the last two months without "activating the potential' in the bupe, but why pine away about the past when the future looks so bright? my doc wants me off the bupe after a year, but if i keep it up at this rate, in 3 more months i'll have enough to last me. . . oh crap you guys do the math, on an abacus for all i care, i'll figure it out eventually, now that i've got the extra energy & positivity & whatnot else that i haven't REALLY had since i was on the oxys. i honestly thought that suboxone was the best thing that ever happened to me -- when i was taking it the way THEY told me to. now that i have all this info from you guys, i feel like a kid in a candy shop -- an OPIATE candy shop, no less -- or it's christmas every day, or whatever. thinking on following captain h's advice with the syringes & the micron filters, not sure how my girl will like that -- she's so proud of the "no opiate addiction" phase i'm in, but she was cool with me takin' the oxy's, cuz she saw how "amazingly functional" (her words) i was on the stuff, & she's on antidepressants & whatnot so she understands about chemicals & brain chemistry & whatnot, so i think i'll ease her into understanding the insufflation route this weekend & then i betcha a dollar she'll help me start dividing them pills up & figuring out how low i can dose, & stretch those pills so far into the horizon that they bump into tomorrow at the international date line.
again, i know this is a bit off topic for this thread, but really -- i'm gonna try this method, i been readin' all the BL posts on bupe all over the place, no method but no madness, just readin' all i can, & all i can say is that the excitement just got a hold of me & i felt like saying something like "THANK YOU GUYS YOU ARE THE BEST I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS!!!!!!" captain h. has already got a PM from me, & of course he responded right away & answered all my dumb questions & acted like the prince-shaman-psychologist-psychiatrist-psychoanalyst-priest-imam-fatherfigure-bigbrother-bestfriend-palonthestreet-(al)chemist-philosopher-therapist that he always seems to be. . . that all of you seem to be.
thanks guys. i lost a job, and found out my girl is pregnant -- both on LABOR day, get it, like a double-double entendre -- then got a new better job, went on probation, passed a drug test, re-upped my bupe scrip, blah blah blah everything seemed like it couldn't get better and WHAM! i find you guys.
sorry. logorrhea. been a problem of mine for a LOOONG time, & there's no loperamide for it. . . better than constipation, some people would say.
just. . . thanks. seriously -- thanks.