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So, What Made Me an Addict?

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Many people think they know what addiction is, but despite non-experts' willingness to opine on its treatment and whether Britney or Lindsay's rehab was tough enough, the term is still a battleground. Is addiction a disease? A moral weakness? A disorder caused by drug or alcohol use, or a compulsive behavior that can also occur in relation to sex, food and maybe even video games?

As a former cocaine and heroin addict, these questions have long fascinated me. I want to know why, in three years, I went from being an Ivy League student to a daily IV drug user who weighed 80 pounds. I want to know why I got hooked, when many of my fellow drug users did not.

A bill was introduced in Congress this spring to change the name of the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA) to the National Institute on Diseases of Addiction, and the National Institute on Alcoholism and Alcohol Abuse (NIAAA) to the National Institute on Alcohol Disorders and Health. In a press release introducing the legislation, Sen. Joseph R. Biden Jr. (D-Del.) said, "By changing the way we talk about addiction, we change the way people think about addiction, both of which are critical steps in getting past the social stigma too often associated with the disease."

But opinion polls find weak support for the concept of addiction as a disease, despite years of advocacy by such agencies as NIDA and NIAAA and by recovery groups. A 2002 Hart poll found that most people thought alcoholism was about half disease, half weakness; just 9 percent viewed it wholly as a disease.

So what does science have to say? Addiction research has advanced dramatically since my high school years in the early 1980s, when I began using marijuana and psychedelics, then cocaine, in the hope they would relieve my social isolation. My progression from psychedelics to coke was fed by a definition of addiction that still causes widespread misunderstanding. In 1982 -- around when I first tried cocaine -- Scientific American published an article claiming it was no more addictive than potato chips. This was based on the fact that cocaine users, unlike heroin users, do not become physically sick when they try to stop taking their drug.

Addiction, by this reasoning, is a purely physiological process, one that results from drug-induced chemical changes in the brain and body. Over time, with heroin and similar drugs, the article explained, the user develops tolerance (needs more of the drug to experience the same effect) and eventually becomes physically ill if he doesn't have access to an adequate dose. Addiction, by this theory, is primarily an attempt to avoid physical withdrawal.

I bought into this idea because it was confirmed by my experience: I never had a problem stopping marijuana, LSD or mushrooms, none of which cause significant physical dependence. I expected cocaine to be similar and, therefore, safer than heroin. With no physical withdrawal to avoid, stopping should be a snap. Or so I thought.

By the time I got suspended from college for my involvement with cocaine, I was smoking it, often daily. And because I believed that my suspension meant I'd already ruined my life, I felt I had no reason not to try heroin. I just didn't care.

Heroin became my drug of choice. It calmed me, gave me distance from my obsessions and anxieties. Over time, cocaine made me feel anxious, but heroin always soothed and smoothed. I continued taking both, injecting higher and higher doses.

Today's most widely accepted definition of addiction -- used in psychiatry's latest edition of its diagnostic manual, the DSM-IV-TR -- recognizes that compulsive use of a substance despite negative consequences is key. And that's exactly what I experienced: At least six times, I made it through the physical sickness of heroin withdrawal -- the shaking, diarrhea and vomiting -- only to use again because I wanted the drug. This compulsive aspect helps explain why we can now consider video games and, yes, even potato chips more addictive than we did in the past.

But the DSM retains a focus on physical aspects of addiction: It calls addiction "substance dependence," suggesting that physical need is critical. Tolerance and withdrawal are part of the criteria used to diagnose the condition, even though pain patients taking opioids as directed may experience both and not actually be addicted. Studies find that less than 1 percent of people who take pain medications and don't have a past history of drug problems become addicted. Many pain patients who stop opioids after the source of their pain has been removed even undergo withdrawal without realizing it: It's called "hospital flu." But the vast majority have no difficulty refusing further medication.

As a result, experts -- including NIDA director Nora Volkow -- have called for the official name of the disorder to be changed from "substance dependence" to "addiction" in the next edition of the DSM. They say the confusion between physical dependence and addiction leads to under-treatment of pain: Surveys find many patients, even those who are dying, don't receive enough medication for effective relief. Physicians are even criminally prosecuted for "over-prescribing" when patients with painful conditions become physically dependent on opioid drugs.

But if physical symptoms don't define addiction, does it follow that addiction is a brain disorder? Matters are murky here as well.

While researchers have argued that addiction is a disease because drugs change the brain, the fact is, most users -- even of drugs such as heroin -- do not become addicted. While 50 percent of American soldiers in Vietnam tried heroin or opium, only 10 percent continued to use such drugs after returning home, and just 1 percent became long-term opioid addicts, according to a federally funded study by University of Washington sociologist Lee Robins.

Further, all brain changes are not indicative of disease. Learning itself changes the brain. FMRI brain scans of London taxi drivers and virtuoso violinists show changes that embody the effects of years of practice in relevant brain regions -- however, no one argues that this means they are ill.

As a result, scans alone cannot prove that addiction is a disease. "The idea that fMRIs can explain addiction is based on the same unscientific grounds as phrenology," says psychologist Stanton Peele, a longtime opponent of seeing addiction as a disease and author of the new book "Addiction-Proof Your Child."

In my own experience, I stopped using when addiction threatened my core values. On my last day taking heroin, I found myself considering seducing a man to get drugs. Because I despised this guy and had a serious boyfriend, I was shocked that I would consider it: I knew that that was addictive behavior. At that point, my personal definition of an addict was someone who violates her own principles to get drugs. I sought treatment the next day and never used cocaine or heroin again.

In Peele's view, addiction is a bad habit, a learned behavior that gets out of hand, an exaggeration of the human tendency to put off pain in favor of immediate pleasure. Even, in some instances, a rational choice when life presents little opportunity for connection, purpose or joy.

Volkow disagrees. She has pioneered brain-imaging research on addictions, looking for ways in which they differ from ordinary learning. "Drugs of abuse affect multiple systems, not just those involved with learning and memory," she says, adding that they interfere with regions that put the brakes on unwanted behavior.

"What happens in the brain of the addicted person is equivalent to a state of deprivation. It changes the brain from operating in a situation where someone has a choice and does something because he wants to do it to a situation where it feels like need," she says.

That, too, comports with my experience: Cocaine seemed to affect my motivation, leading me to take more even when I knew it would fuel a burst of paranoia, not euphoria. While at first it brightened and enhanced other joys, over time it sucked the pleasure and color out of my life. But although I could consciously see this, I felt I couldn't stop.

Another relevant factor seems to have been my youth: We now know that the frontal cortex, the seat of judgment, the region that should apply the brakes, is not fully developed until the early to mid-20s. I quit at 23; when I look back on my behavior now, the sheer stupidity of some of the risks I took shocks me. Genetic research also suggests that certain people are more prone to addiction, particularly those with other mental illnesses such as depression, a condition I also have.

So does that make it a disease? Some would argue that my response to treatment proves it. I underwent seven days of detox, 30 days of rehab, then three months in a halfway house and ongoing self-help support. Later, antidepressant medication helped reduce the distress that I'd previously self-medicated with heroin.

As Thomas McLellan, chief executive of the Treatment Research Institute in Philadelphia and professor of psychiatry at the University of Pennsylvania, notes, treatment for addiction is as effective as treatment for other chronic diseases that involve lifestyle change, such as diabetes and asthma.

Stigma-Proofing Addiction

Just calling it a disease, however, may not reduce the moral stigma tied to addiction -- as some hope. University of Nevada psychologist Steven Hayes is studying people's unconscious responses to words. "Disease" was as stigmatizing overall as clearly pejorative terms such as "drunk," and was more stigmatizing overall than such terms as "addict" and "intoxicated," he says.

Consider the historical treatment of people with epilepsy or "madness." Or the fact that we think "tough" rehabs are good, despite evidence suggesting otherwise -- though we wouldn't even contemplate "getting tough" with diabetics. Says McLellan: "Yes, people with epilepsy were sent to priests and shamans, too -- but that was the 18th century. Addicted people are still told to get religion."

The program I attended, for example, told me that I would not recover if I didn't surrender to a higher power, make amends and pray. This is not how most diseases are treated.

Further, labeling people with a brain disease characterized by lack of self-control can have negative consequences, particularly for adolescent users, most of whom are not addicts, suggest NIDA surveys and other research. In many teen rehabs, youths are told that they have "chronic, progressive" illness with a 90 percent chance of relapse. Forcing teens, whose identity is not fully formed, to accept an "addict" identity can be a self-fulfilling prophecy.

As Peele points out, "Self-efficacy and the image of the ability to control oneself are critical to recovery" -- as they are to maturation. For the same reason, it's a bad idea to tell people that without treatment, recovery is impossible. In fact, most addicts who recover do so without treatment. Among those who relapse, belief in the disease model is predictive of greater severity, research shows.

So is addiction disease or learned behavior? Given its complexity, some experts say, what probably matters most is which view best yields compassionate and effective treatment.

So, What Made Me an Addict?
Experts Debate Whether Disease or Defect Is to Blame

By Maia Szalavitz
The Washington Post

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good article, addiction is definitly an interesting topic. I'm glad to read material that isn't so baised as all the shit in the media.
 
Consider the historical treatment of people with epilepsy or "madness." Or the fact that we think "tough" rehabs are good, despite evidence suggesting otherwise -- though we wouldn't even contemplate "getting tough" with diabetics. Says McLellan: "Yes, people with epilepsy were sent to priests and shamans, too -- but that was the 18th century. Addicted people are still told to get religion."
Brilliant, so true. I never understand why all rehab programs insist on turning to religion and god for help 8)
 
It's because they are religious fanatics and believe religion is the key to life, and without it, one can't possibly live a "normal" or "healthy" life.... It's all a bunch of bullshit, as I personally don't buy into that religious hypocrisy (especially christianity, GODDAMN! lol), but that's a whole paper to be written and I won't go any further.... Some people need to believe in a "higher power" to be happy (i think they are weak, but to each their own)..
 
einsteinium said:
It's because they are religious fanatics and believe religion is the key to life, and without it, one can't possibly live a "normal" or "healthy" life.... It's all a bunch of bullshit, as I personally don't buy into that religious hypocrisy (especially christianity, GODDAMN! lol), but that's a whole paper to be written and I won't go any further.... Some people need to believe in a "higher power" to be happy (i think they are weak, but to each their own)..


Why are people weak if they believe in a higher power? A higher power can be a big man in the sky with a white beard or nothing more than the forces of nature. The whole reason that "higher power" gets brought up so much in recovery is because they want people to understand that they are not it, they want to people to understand that there are more powerful things on this earth then them. A lot of the addicts i have known have had trouble staying clean because they are under the impression that they can and should be able to control every aspect of their life, sometimes you just can't control certain things and this where the whole idea of a "higher power" comes in handy. Recovery and life in general becomes a lot easier once someone realizes that they are not in control of everything.
 
LuGoJ said:
Why are people weak if they believe in a higher power? A higher power can be a big man in the sky with a white beard or nothing more than the forces of nature. The whole reason that "higher power" gets brought up so much in recovery is because they want people to understand that they are not it, they want to people to understand that there are more powerful things on this earth then them. A lot of the addicts i have known have had trouble staying clean because they are under the impression that they can and should be able to control every aspect of their life, sometimes you just can't control certain things and this where the whole idea of a "higher power" comes in handy. Recovery and life in general becomes a lot easier once someone realizes that they are not in control of everything.

Because if you look at the fact, humans are the most advanced organisms known to exist. God doesn't exist. There is no responce that you can give to me that can refute this, it's fucking self evident.
 
LuGoJ said:
Why are people weak if they believe in a higher power? A higher power can be a big man in the sky with a white beard or nothing more than the forces of nature. The whole reason that "higher power" gets brought up so much in recovery is because they want people to understand that they are not it, they want to people to understand that there are more powerful things on this earth then them. A lot of the addicts i have known have had trouble staying clean because they are under the impression that they can and should be able to control every aspect of their life, sometimes you just can't control certain things and this where the whole idea of a "higher power" comes in handy. Recovery and life in general becomes a lot easier once someone realizes that they are not in control of everything.

I don't think you can call the forces of nature a higher power, you can in AA but most people think of a man in the sky with a white beard. I think even the pussies in AA who tell you your higher power can be nature don't believe that because you are not held acountable to nature, nature doese not judge you for your sins against it. There are other ways to teach people to let life happen then to brain wash them with the opinions of people that live two thousand years ago on how life should be lived. I don't recall the person you are questioning saying that people are weak because they believe in god, he said some people need a higher power to live as in they can't live with out it, the world just doese not make sense(funny the bible doesnt make sense to me) and because of this just as I am weak because I can't seem to live with out heroin, they are weak. In conclusion fuck jesus... fuck him.
 
I don't get the whole "your higher power could be anything" bit.

Attributing your higher power to anything other than "God" just doesn't make sense. It seems like they just stuck that in there to deflect the accusation of being religious.

I mean, it just seems like a false illusion(even more so than God)... But whatever, if it works for you, go with it.
 
Adrenochrome said:
Because if you look at the fact, humans are the most advanced organisms known to exist. God doesn't exist. There is no responce that you can give to me that can refute this, it's fucking self evident.

What does believing in a higher power have to do with believing in God? You are making something religious when it doesn't have to be. Personally i don't care what people believe in, as long as it makes them happy.
 
LuGoJ said:
What does believing in a higher power have to do with believing in God? You are making something religious when it doesn't have to be. Personally i don't care what people believe in, as long as it makes them happy.

I agree with you to some extent—I don't care what people believe in either (e.g., I don't care that you have the delusion that there is a power higher than man).
Whats that one cliche, oh ya: Ignorance is bliss
 
einsteinium said:
It's because they are religious fanatics and believe religion is the key to life, and without it, one can't possibly live a "normal" or "healthy" life.... It's all a bunch of bullshit, as I personally don't buy into that religious hypocrisy (especially christianity, GODDAMN! lol), but that's a whole paper to be written and I won't go any further.... Some people need to believe in a "higher power" to be happy (i think they are weak, but to each their own)..

You seem to be confusing religion and spirituality. If you don't believe in a higher power, that's OK. I guess that means that you believe that you, in fact, are the highest power?

FC
 
Adrenochrome said:
Because if you look at the fact, humans are the most advanced organisms known to exist. God doesn't exist. There is no responce that you can give to me that can refute this, it's fucking self evident.

Known to whom? Man? Your reasoning is circular, my friend.

FC
 
Fight Club said:
You seem to be confusing religion and spirituality. If you don't believe in a higher power, that's OK. I guess that means that you believe that you, in fact, are the highest power?

FC
What a horrid rhetorical question.
There is no power higher than man.

And if you've ever attended the AA meetings then you know that your higher power can't be the government or something to do with man, it has to be some spiritual (i.e., something that doesn't exist) bullshit.
 
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