Im on 30mg ativan but I can barley feel it because I was on xanax earlier (Im kicking suboxone for a little while, its my 4rth day) at a fairly large dose and just took some more. I think I may have cleaned out my adderall stash and taken it all 120mg of it while blacked out for the past 2 days basically but dont worry I only have a very limited supply of benzo's right now and I will run out in a couple of days then have some morphine for the first time in months. Then I will get back on the suboxone. I feel really euphoric off of just ativan and I cant find the adderall so I must have taken it, even though I havnt taken it recreationally in like 5 months benzo's always make you do stupid stuff. I already have the morphine (a 90mg mscontin) but I have to wait until the suboxone wears off to get anything off of it.