Right on. That is one of the toughest things is to admit to you parents that you are a junkie. It happens to most, if not all, heroin junkies, and I include that in my life about 8 years ago. I hope you did what I did and got that monkey off your back. It took a while for me, but my dumbass did it successfully.
The only thing I’m confused about your post is your making that dealer “paud him the usual amount” the definition of “paud” is :
To have sex with an elderly grandma/woman or to have sex with a group or gang.
I’m really hoping you meant paid (which is a pretty funny Freudian slip, that made this wizard lolololol)!?