Well since my 'nightly fix' (give or take) 48 hours ago that was 75mg methamphetamine & whatever else I consumed, I have since bumped up to 200mg methamphetamine (vaporized/intranasal), more cannabis flower, more alcohol, another 2mg-3mg xanax spaced out in 0.5mg-1mg doses, 2 huge lines of fairly high purity cocaine, melatonin, cigarettes and caffeine. I haven't slept in the past 48 hours, obviously and I'm feeling pretty trapped. My stimulant usage has increased dramatically since I moved back from living in Colorado for 2.5 months.
Hopefully I'll be able to move back to Colorado soon, but I've already been summoned to court next month for graffiti... smh. I've been in the state to the right of Colorado for most of my whole life, nearly half of my life spent abusing drugs and being in the dealers/users scene or jails and institutions. I was able to stay off of stimulants & hard drugs for 2.5 months in Colorado, which is the longest I've managed to stay off of dopaminergic stimulant drugs since I first tried them 5 years ago.