So I have not been here for ages. Anyhow I have been in a fucked up on and off relationship for years with my fiance. I just fucking love the fuck out of this man and I have learned to accept SO MUCH for him. I changed my life for him, I had my own issues mentally and sexually and fixed them all. Him on the other hand has never tried to fix any of his sexual issues:
He can't cum ( only from masturbation )
He can't fuck for a long time he will lose his erection
He never wants to have sex and I get rejected 98 percent of the time
When I'm lucky and can have 5 min+ of sex it's still boring, he has no reactions, says nothing, and just I feel like I'm fucking a fuck doll.
There is no kissing in the full relationship.
No fooling around at all.
If he somehow wants sex he won't do anything to try to help me get in the mood or ready. He expects me to touch him with one hand and my self with the other.
He thinks it's okay to jack off next to me after sex so he isn't frustrated yet does nothing for me to get off.
So thats a little list of shit I go through sex affects the FULL relationship and I know some people say it shouldn't and sex shouldn't be the center of everything. But it does. I have no self esteem or confidence anymore, always frustrated, and thinking making love to him kills me inside. Just sex over all makes me want to punch everyone thats near me. I try to not think about it.
There are times where I will not try to have sex with him or try to kiss him or do anything with him. These are times where he might try to have sex with me him self. If I say "no" because I have no self esteem he says shit like " then i have no reason to be with you if we cant fuck "
He says he hates sex. Then he still wants it if he doesnt get it for like two weeks or something. But it only lasts for 5 min almost never more and its really..... awkward as fuck.
I tried doing all his favorite things and new things to try to get him wanting sex. It never works. I told him to fuck another woman, he won't. I said we should watch porn, he won't. I asked him to try viagra or something, he said never.
Only thing that seems to get him hard is him talking about another woman ( the ever so famous on is my fucking twin sister also his ex ) and I DEAL WITH IT even if it hurts me.
Pretty much we have a horrible sad sex life and I need new tips to try to fix this shit. Either a medicine, or something for his dick, sometimes he says he isn't sensitive and thats why.. does anything exist to make it more sensitive? The only thing I find is to make it less sensitive. What makes men hard and want sex? Like seriously I tried everything I know and I'm very open,Yet he doesnt care but says it isnt me.
Or maybe I should just give up and find someone new?
I'm only twenty I feel like im missing out on so much
He can't cum ( only from masturbation )
He can't fuck for a long time he will lose his erection
He never wants to have sex and I get rejected 98 percent of the time
When I'm lucky and can have 5 min+ of sex it's still boring, he has no reactions, says nothing, and just I feel like I'm fucking a fuck doll.
There is no kissing in the full relationship.
No fooling around at all.
If he somehow wants sex he won't do anything to try to help me get in the mood or ready. He expects me to touch him with one hand and my self with the other.
He thinks it's okay to jack off next to me after sex so he isn't frustrated yet does nothing for me to get off.
So thats a little list of shit I go through sex affects the FULL relationship and I know some people say it shouldn't and sex shouldn't be the center of everything. But it does. I have no self esteem or confidence anymore, always frustrated, and thinking making love to him kills me inside. Just sex over all makes me want to punch everyone thats near me. I try to not think about it.
There are times where I will not try to have sex with him or try to kiss him or do anything with him. These are times where he might try to have sex with me him self. If I say "no" because I have no self esteem he says shit like " then i have no reason to be with you if we cant fuck "
He says he hates sex. Then he still wants it if he doesnt get it for like two weeks or something. But it only lasts for 5 min almost never more and its really..... awkward as fuck.
I tried doing all his favorite things and new things to try to get him wanting sex. It never works. I told him to fuck another woman, he won't. I said we should watch porn, he won't. I asked him to try viagra or something, he said never.
Only thing that seems to get him hard is him talking about another woman ( the ever so famous on is my fucking twin sister also his ex ) and I DEAL WITH IT even if it hurts me.
Pretty much we have a horrible sad sex life and I need new tips to try to fix this shit. Either a medicine, or something for his dick, sometimes he says he isn't sensitive and thats why.. does anything exist to make it more sensitive? The only thing I find is to make it less sensitive. What makes men hard and want sex? Like seriously I tried everything I know and I'm very open,Yet he doesnt care but says it isnt me.
Or maybe I should just give up and find someone new?
I'm only twenty I feel like im missing out on so much