PinK~cloud
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uh... ambien made me honestly believe i was talking to shaq.
Getting sick and having a 102+ fever reminds me of amphetamine psychosis in regards to the visuals and random thought flow.
The second time I dosed lower as the first time was crazy intense
and this time I felt almost sober for the longest time and then
like a thief in the night it hit me. The ayahuasca reality
overlayed with the normal one and I couldn't separate the two. It
was the end of the world, 2012 came early and everything
(technology, time) was doubling on itself every second. Computer
screens materializing in mid-air, Asian androids popping out of
nowhere and disintegrating. Particles of light like confetti everywhere.
There is no way to explain how
completely visually intense and crazy this reality was. Its still a
blur. It was probably the most difficult thing I have every been
through, because I felt I had "missed the boat" and the universe I
was in was set to disintegrate my soul with it (forget ego or
physical death, this was to be the end of my very soul). This is
very much like the end of the second matrix movie now that I think
of it. The scary part was that I was still convinced of this AFTER
the ceremony was over! Talk about pain and sadness, but it was good
to go through it. It wasn't until I woke up the next day that things
were back to "normal".
That all is given and all is taken and all is cycled around. We are all part of everything. We all know each other. There's beauty in simplicity and joy in stillness and the thoughtless mind. I am here now.
^DMT^