It’s like feeling the hunger pains from starvation but still having to spend your last $50 on a pill
It’s like constantly telling lies to all of your family and friends
It’s like waking up everyday mad because you already know what you gotta do
It’s like taking the poison that’s killing you every 4 hours as needed for pain
It's like missing out on all family functions because you were too high or too sick.
It’s like not even being invited to family functions
It’s like crying yourself to sleep every night because you’re no longer allowed around your own children
It’s like knowing ahead of time that you needed to pass that drug test but you still failed it
It’s like having to ask everyone else how your own children are doing. How was their Christmas?
It’s like watching everyone else get to live their life while you are destroying yours
It’s like all of your time is ran by your drug dealers time
It’s like having to sell everything you love just to be able to function
It's like losing everything you've ever owned in your entire life.
It's like nobody believing a word that you say even when its true
It's like being a prisoner inside your own head.
It’s like never being scared of death because you think that’s the only way out
It’s like no one ever understanding because they don’t have to
It’s like being on fire but everyone pretends that you’re not
It’s like you’d do absolutely anything you had to do to get it…so you did
Hey I've been rewriting some of it and adding to it. Here it is now..
People think they know what addiction is like??
It's like feeling the hunger pains from starvation but still having to spend your last $50 on a pill
It's like never being able to tell the truth to the people you really love
It's like waking up everyday mad because you already know what you gotta do
It's like having to take poison when you already know it’s gonna kill you
It's like knowing ahead of time that you needed to pass that drug test but you still couldn’t do it so you failed it
It's like all of your time is ran by your drug dealers time
It's like having to sell everything you love just to be able to function
It's like losing everything you've ever owned in your entire life and nobody cares
It's like nobody believing a word that you say even when its true
It’s like having every thing you say automatically invalidated
It's like being a prisoner inside your own head because even after you got better you still got invalidated
It’s like not being scared of death because you know its the only way out
It's like missing out on all family functions because you were too high or too sick.
It's like no longer being considered good enough to even be invited to any of the family functions
It’s like having all the rest of the Christians trying to purchase your grace.
It's like crying yourself to sleep every night because you're no longer allowed around your own children
It’s like having your children taken from you because you’ll never be good enough to be their mother
It’s like constantly being on trial because you’ve been charged with neglect…..because everyone else thinks that if you really loved your kids you’d quit
It's like having to ask everyone else how your own children are doing because everyone else thinks they are safer for them then you
It’s like living life while battling severe C-PTSD while also constantly getting trigger by the very people that caused the C-PTSD
Its like the same people calling you toxic
It’s like still having to be friends with people that steal off of you
It’s like getting to watch everyone else get to live their life while you are destroying yours
It’s like everyone else getting to make up all of the facts about you and your life.
It's like no one ever understanding because they will never have to
It's like being on fire but everyone pretends that you're not
It's like but still having to do absolutely anything you had to do to get it...because you still had to….so you did
-Kellsee
