I've done shrooms once (5g for heroic dose about a week or 2 ago and it changed my life- for the better) and I've only done lsd sold as blotter one other time. DMT a handful of times. When I was younger I did a lot of DXM and... heroin, coke, liquor etc etc.
I've been researching lsd and other psychadelics, here and there, for years.
So I got 10 tabs of this "110ug bay area needlepoint" stuff via darknet and wanted to have a profound spiritual experience! So I drove 2 hours to go for a hike. I dropped 2 tabs, the first one at 2:30 and the seconds one at 3:30.
I can say is that it was really weird.
I felt this sort of "lightning" sensation on my skin on the come up, or maybe im only using that word because its what I read. Then soon after my hands (all physical contact) went kind of numb, a LOT like DXM (dextromethorphan)
I felt very disconnected. Colors were brighter and senses of smell were heightened, I became sensitive to hearing reverb (it hurt my ears) objects appeared as if they were breathing, like they had life. Like shrooms, except on shrooms I was able to feel love for what I was looking at....The visuals were nothing extraordinary. Objects were breathing and sometimes I'd make faces out of patterns or see things inside things.
There was some creative thinking.
I became very frightened during a hike, that the ground was unstable and everything would just cave in. I was frozen in terror and couldn't go down one trail. It was probably a lot to do even not on lsd.
I didn't feel "close" or "at one" with nature at all... I was scared of nature and could only appreciate it from a disconnected distance, like looking into my phone's camera with the zoom all the way in looking at a fly on the outside of my car while I sit in the airconditioning.
At several points I noticed where I was rhythmic automatic breathing and moaning similar to a DMT experience, almost like a sexual type moan but no release involved, just a sigh of... mmmmmm
I think this is my body's own intelligence, and my body's way of calming me the fuck down during a traumatic experience.
I became violently fucking hungry and had to eat. I just ate 2 hours before dosing. I'm a person who eats every 2 hours so I luckily carry Tupperware with me everywhere I go. So I found a place to eat.
At which point I washed up upon a beach, and saw a woman I normally wouldn't be attracted to.
I wanted to rape her
Violently
I wanted to knock her boyfriend out and knock her out and drag her by the hair into the woods and rape this bitch.
Which is weird because she's totally not my type.
At one point I was sexualizing an elderly woman.
I didn't want to listen to Donovan and Scott McKenzie and the Beatles. Like I did on shrooms. Or even Stevie Ray Vaughan or Hendrix. All I wanted was modern gangster rap. At one point I was jamming out so hard that I wanted to be in a mosh pit.
Driving felt very pleasurable, going up and down the windy roads felt like a roller coaster and felt like it gave me control.
Any time I encountered any humans I felt EXTREME paranoia.
I never laughed. Once. Or felt love or any of the good connected vibes I felt during shrooms. Most of my trip was spent wondering is this shit even real acid??? Is this the same acid that came out of the 50's and 60's and 70's?
Because I didn't feel much ego-death. It felt very ego-centric. Like I was the center of the universe (like wanted to rape the woman)
I felt very reptilian
Almost 12 hours later... Things are still breathing and
Now I feel very cracked out.
The only emotional insight I got was like... God damn, I appreciate the city so much more after I see how scary this little nature town is. and also, that its sad that I had to drive 2 hours to go to a hike that I otherwise wouldn't have been so present for. Nature is very scary. and that's ok. whatever.
Honestly I'm pretty fucking pissed right now. I wanted to feel some sort of connectedness or see inside my mind even more than what I did (thoughts of rape didn't surprise me)
Does this sound like LSD? or some NBOME?
edit: oh yeah, There was this sense of "I'm going to have to take a shit" The entire trip. Even after I shit. And my stomach is still a little funky.
I've been researching lsd and other psychadelics, here and there, for years.
So I got 10 tabs of this "110ug bay area needlepoint" stuff via darknet and wanted to have a profound spiritual experience! So I drove 2 hours to go for a hike. I dropped 2 tabs, the first one at 2:30 and the seconds one at 3:30.
I can say is that it was really weird.
I felt this sort of "lightning" sensation on my skin on the come up, or maybe im only using that word because its what I read. Then soon after my hands (all physical contact) went kind of numb, a LOT like DXM (dextromethorphan)
I felt very disconnected. Colors were brighter and senses of smell were heightened, I became sensitive to hearing reverb (it hurt my ears) objects appeared as if they were breathing, like they had life. Like shrooms, except on shrooms I was able to feel love for what I was looking at....The visuals were nothing extraordinary. Objects were breathing and sometimes I'd make faces out of patterns or see things inside things.
There was some creative thinking.
I became very frightened during a hike, that the ground was unstable and everything would just cave in. I was frozen in terror and couldn't go down one trail. It was probably a lot to do even not on lsd.
I didn't feel "close" or "at one" with nature at all... I was scared of nature and could only appreciate it from a disconnected distance, like looking into my phone's camera with the zoom all the way in looking at a fly on the outside of my car while I sit in the airconditioning.
At several points I noticed where I was rhythmic automatic breathing and moaning similar to a DMT experience, almost like a sexual type moan but no release involved, just a sigh of... mmmmmm
I think this is my body's own intelligence, and my body's way of calming me the fuck down during a traumatic experience.
I became violently fucking hungry and had to eat. I just ate 2 hours before dosing. I'm a person who eats every 2 hours so I luckily carry Tupperware with me everywhere I go. So I found a place to eat.
At which point I washed up upon a beach, and saw a woman I normally wouldn't be attracted to.
I wanted to rape her
Violently
I wanted to knock her boyfriend out and knock her out and drag her by the hair into the woods and rape this bitch.
Which is weird because she's totally not my type.
At one point I was sexualizing an elderly woman.
I didn't want to listen to Donovan and Scott McKenzie and the Beatles. Like I did on shrooms. Or even Stevie Ray Vaughan or Hendrix. All I wanted was modern gangster rap. At one point I was jamming out so hard that I wanted to be in a mosh pit.
Driving felt very pleasurable, going up and down the windy roads felt like a roller coaster and felt like it gave me control.
Any time I encountered any humans I felt EXTREME paranoia.
I never laughed. Once. Or felt love or any of the good connected vibes I felt during shrooms. Most of my trip was spent wondering is this shit even real acid??? Is this the same acid that came out of the 50's and 60's and 70's?
Because I didn't feel much ego-death. It felt very ego-centric. Like I was the center of the universe (like wanted to rape the woman)
I felt very reptilian
Almost 12 hours later... Things are still breathing and
Now I feel very cracked out.
The only emotional insight I got was like... God damn, I appreciate the city so much more after I see how scary this little nature town is. and also, that its sad that I had to drive 2 hours to go to a hike that I otherwise wouldn't have been so present for. Nature is very scary. and that's ok. whatever.
Honestly I'm pretty fucking pissed right now. I wanted to feel some sort of connectedness or see inside my mind even more than what I did (thoughts of rape didn't surprise me)
Does this sound like LSD? or some NBOME?
edit: oh yeah, There was this sense of "I'm going to have to take a shit" The entire trip. Even after I shit. And my stomach is still a little funky.
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