Can you do mmt? I dont have insurance either and work plus have 3 kids So cold turkey was not an option for me. Too many responsabilities to be sick and out of commission for two weeks. I also need it for cravings. I lack the self control to be sober at this point in my life. Its 90 a week. Seems like a lot but after dropping 3000 a month on dope its nothing. Its not a perfect solution but it really beats active addiction. My life now is totally normal. for example I have to scrub in for two blepharoplasties on monday. If i were fucked up from the done do u think i would be able to act as surgical technician and work one on one with the surgeon? A lot of people give mmt a bad name but like anything else it is what u make of it. If you follow the rules and are honest with the clinic they get you on the right dose. Trust me it is much better than the out of control feeling you have now. 4 months ago I wanted to die. The burden and shame that comes along with being a heroin addict becomes unbearable. You are trapped and miserable and live your life right now to spare others the grief of your loss but for u, death is welcome right? You dream of getting hit by a bus so it all ends! Sound familiar? Look into mmt... it might be a feasible solution for now. Then again i dont know your history or how long u have been at it. For me it was 4 yrs with a 4 month sub stint in there in the middle. If you are a new user just disregard. I wont delete the post in case you are in the same boat i was in! Good luck