OP: Here is some food for though; Addiction and dependence are two different things. They do go hand in hand when it comes to opiates though. Right now while you are dependent on Bupe, you can work through the problems that caused your addiction in the first place. When I was on bupe my emotions were all over the place and I had a hard time controlling my urges which led me to active use again. Keep working on your problems with the help of therapists, drug counselors, family etc. This will help you develop a support network and when you do take the plunge you will come out better in the end.
You should check out Sober Living forum. There are a lot of people there that have been through, or are going through the changes you are experiencing.
@Justtakethat: Growing up I was told that if I did not have something worthwhile to add to a conversation then I should be quiet and listen. Someday I hope you understand why this is a valuable skill.