Well imagine about 300mg of oxy a day for 2 years then picking up IVing about 32mg of dilaudid a day for about another yearish... then IVing about a half gram of heroin a day for the last seven months.... something along those lines give or take.... that is what I am detoxing from now. I live in a motel, barley eat because I have no money, my spotless record now has shoplifting charges which of course was because the paycheck couldnt feed us put gas in the car and get our fix, my car (I wouldn't have if my gand father didn't buy for me) is the worst wreck u have ever seen complete with on the verge of popping bald tires no hood and a shattered windsheild, I'm in some serious debt to banks, most of my family and friends will not speak to me, my husband works his ass off (somehow thru this all God bless him) thank God cuz I have no job. And there is a lot more joy and good fortune in my life I didn't mention... anyway so yea that's where addiction takes you... I have quit a dozen times, this time I feel I don't have a choice. If I don't we will be homeless and have nothing for the rest of our pathetic lives. I really feel like this is our last chance. That's why it's going to work this time. I have the faith. There is no choice but success for us now or we may as well throw in the towel and leave this earth. I know we will be able to do it and lead good happy lives. A lot of it is psychological, and with knowing it is going to work out is like a meracle waiting to happen, it still don't help the physical symptoms... but that's where subutex comes in and when used correctly and only for a week or so... let me tell you that stuff is the golden ticket. If you have that, then all you have to do is have enough desire to STAY clean. But my point to you is hell yea do it whIle you are still on the easier side of it. Just think, if you get through this and stay clean, you will never have to deal with this bullshit & pain ever again... it's worth it to never feel this way again right? And the only way to ENSURE that is to never touch the crap again. Maybe not FOREVER... but for long enough for this right here and now to feel so distant that it could have just been a bad dream. If you look at the bigger picture in life, the small amount of euphoria and short lived high is not worth the long and hard path it takes the wheel and leads you down. My life is disgusting I have no problem admitting that, what I have a problem with is knowing that and not taking the steps to correct it!! Anyone can do it if they really want it and have the faith. Sorry about the long rant u just struck something in me...