Because you don't understand it, or had a bad personal experience of it, or... why exactly?
Shame - are you sure? Perhaps you mean self esteem or lack thereof. Well thats how I see it anyway, huge problem for both men and women.
RE: "masculinity is toxic, it needs to be superannuated the fuck off the scene" plus my comments on male shame being very dangerous ...
My most recent partner, with whom I lived for almost three years, ended up being insanely violent towards me. Not from the word go - it escalated. It started with stuff I thought was pretty neglible - like throwing things at me. My own parents used to throw things at each other on occasion, have screaming matches, etc. My father was horribly verbally abusive to Mum, but he never hit her.
Anyway, one night - I can't remember why - my ex crossed the Rubicon and more or less beat the shit out of me. I had a black eye, and bumps on my head from haivng my head slammed repeatedly into a wall.
And he was genuinely ashamed. Of this I am sure. He was ashamed because it's deemed to be utterly shameful for a man to do this to a woman.
The shame was, in fact, unbearable for him, and I believe in order to make that shame go away, he more or less had to hit me again, in order to prove to himself that the first assault was somehow justified or not all that bad or really all my fault ... and as such, not as shameful.
Towards the end he was slamming my head into floors, walls ... he was punching me, backhanding me, and worst of all choking me. Very often, right afterward, he'd slam his OWN head into a wall or punch himself in the face. In the first instance, harming himself seemed like a genuine act of self-loathing and shame. He was so ashamed that he'd hurt me, in his panic his first instinct was to hurt himself as well.
Unfortunately, he was nearly always absolutely shit faced when things got this bad, and wouldn't remember how he'd beaten himself up ... or would pretend to not remember.
He'd take photos of black eyes he'd given himself and tell me I'd done it. He'd show these pictures to his mothers and his friends ...
He needed to believe his own bullshit because he inhabited a moral universe - a
masculine moral universe - in which his actions were "unforgiveable". Actually nothing he did would have been unforgiveable
had he been able to own it, to apologise without reservation and to acknowledge my right to be angry about the serious injuries I incurred.
Instead, any apology I got was always half-arsed. "Sorry, but after all, you had done/said ..." sort of apology. And the other thing about this sort of apology from violent men is that it
forecloses the woman's right to be angry about being beaten.
You've received your apology. The verbal apology, however lame, is meant to vitiate all your resentment and mistrust. If you ever refer again to, say, the fact you got a fractured shoulder ... or maybe try to explain how hard it is to trust a man after he's choked you nearly unconscious ... then you are being a bitch and a guilt-mongerer. Instead of a nice forgiving lady...