Hi all, this is my first post.
I went to a 4 day festival over the weekend (06/09/12 - 09/09/12) and dropped about a total of about 2 grams of mdma. I have only done md a couple of times before, the most recent time before this weekend was a month ago. Over the festival the breakdown of what I took is something like this... Day 1: 0.2g in 3 bombs (didn’t really have that much effect), Day 2 about 1 gram in 6 bombs (I know this was a stupid amount now but I wanted to make sure I came up and I also got carried away). Day 3 about 0.5 in 3 bombs, Day 4 0.75 grams.
In hindsight I realize this was a very dangerous thing to do and believe me I regret doing it now. We were camping in quite a big group and one member was supplying to everyone else. Most people took quite a lot more than me over the festival. I didn’t take anything else like K, just quite a few NOS balloons. I guess I wasn't so concerned about doing so much since everyone else was dropping more than me... However most people did say it wasn't strong md.
The comedown, as you would expect has been pretty bad so far. I've been quite depressed and very anxious however the depression has eased a lot. I don’t think I’ve had any "brain zaps" (but I’m not entirely sure what they are?). My vision seems ok; it’s just a little hard to focus on a point sometimes. My appetite comes and goes but I guess it depends on how anxious I am because that makes me feel nauseous. Sleeping has not been too bad but I still wake up about 2 or 3 times a night and I have really weird dreams.
The thing that is getting to me most is a high pitched ringing in my ear that seems to be mostly in my right ear. The festival was pretty loud and I didn't wear ear plugs but I didn’t hug the speakers either. I only really notice it when it is quiet or when I sleep. Does anyone reckon it could be from the md I took? It is making me really anxious and angry with myself for doing so much md. I think the medical name for it is tinnitus and I read it can be caused by loud noises and lots of other things including abnormally low serotonin activity... I also get slight pains in my ear and in the side of my head. Do you think I could be imagining it due to the anxiety?
I’ve been to my GP about It but I did not mention the md, she said there was no infection and that I was probably just the loud noises and that she couldn’t say when it would go away. But Im really worried about having this and I don’t know if I should go back and tell her the whole story so she could maybe diagnose it properly and maybe give me something to treat it… Should I tell my GP about the md?
I’m really scared I’ve done permanent damage to my brain or ears through taking so much mandy, I wish I had just been myself instead of trying to go along with everyone else. Has anyone else had anything like this and been fine after a while. I’m pretty sure I’m going to steer clear of all drugs for a long time...
Thanks to everyone for reading this and for any replies, it really means a lot.
I went to a 4 day festival over the weekend (06/09/12 - 09/09/12) and dropped about a total of about 2 grams of mdma. I have only done md a couple of times before, the most recent time before this weekend was a month ago. Over the festival the breakdown of what I took is something like this... Day 1: 0.2g in 3 bombs (didn’t really have that much effect), Day 2 about 1 gram in 6 bombs (I know this was a stupid amount now but I wanted to make sure I came up and I also got carried away). Day 3 about 0.5 in 3 bombs, Day 4 0.75 grams.
In hindsight I realize this was a very dangerous thing to do and believe me I regret doing it now. We were camping in quite a big group and one member was supplying to everyone else. Most people took quite a lot more than me over the festival. I didn’t take anything else like K, just quite a few NOS balloons. I guess I wasn't so concerned about doing so much since everyone else was dropping more than me... However most people did say it wasn't strong md.
The comedown, as you would expect has been pretty bad so far. I've been quite depressed and very anxious however the depression has eased a lot. I don’t think I’ve had any "brain zaps" (but I’m not entirely sure what they are?). My vision seems ok; it’s just a little hard to focus on a point sometimes. My appetite comes and goes but I guess it depends on how anxious I am because that makes me feel nauseous. Sleeping has not been too bad but I still wake up about 2 or 3 times a night and I have really weird dreams.
The thing that is getting to me most is a high pitched ringing in my ear that seems to be mostly in my right ear. The festival was pretty loud and I didn't wear ear plugs but I didn’t hug the speakers either. I only really notice it when it is quiet or when I sleep. Does anyone reckon it could be from the md I took? It is making me really anxious and angry with myself for doing so much md. I think the medical name for it is tinnitus and I read it can be caused by loud noises and lots of other things including abnormally low serotonin activity... I also get slight pains in my ear and in the side of my head. Do you think I could be imagining it due to the anxiety?
I’ve been to my GP about It but I did not mention the md, she said there was no infection and that I was probably just the loud noises and that she couldn’t say when it would go away. But Im really worried about having this and I don’t know if I should go back and tell her the whole story so she could maybe diagnose it properly and maybe give me something to treat it… Should I tell my GP about the md?
I’m really scared I’ve done permanent damage to my brain or ears through taking so much mandy, I wish I had just been myself instead of trying to go along with everyone else. Has anyone else had anything like this and been fine after a while. I’m pretty sure I’m going to steer clear of all drugs for a long time...
Thanks to everyone for reading this and for any replies, it really means a lot.