Papaverium
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So my boyfriend and I have been trying to stay clean off opiates with multiple relapses within that timeframe.
I'm 16 days clean today, and I'm starting to realize that he's just depressing. I've tried giving him words of encouragement, but his attitude towards quitting is just not right.
We just had a conversation that basically almost turned into an argument, over being broke but somehow magically having enough money to buy coffee, or cigarettes, but not having enough money to ride the bus to work.
Something about him saying that to me threw me off and I don't know what to do.. I miss being around him when we were sober, he was a happy person. But now it seems like he's just dragging himself down even more, emotionally.
I really don't wannna break up with him, but he doesn't seem to want to get help, and I can't be around him if he's depressed and relapsing every week...
I'm trying to help him, but there's just this tension I feel, and we never see eachother often anymore. It's just weird...
Man I've never had to break up with anyone before... this is a confusing situation. But it might be for my own good. I can't have negative energy dragging me down....
I dunno, I guess I just wanted some opinions, if anyone took the time to read this whole thing cause i know it's quite the TL;DR..
~Verri
I'm 16 days clean today, and I'm starting to realize that he's just depressing. I've tried giving him words of encouragement, but his attitude towards quitting is just not right.
We just had a conversation that basically almost turned into an argument, over being broke but somehow magically having enough money to buy coffee, or cigarettes, but not having enough money to ride the bus to work.
Something about him saying that to me threw me off and I don't know what to do.. I miss being around him when we were sober, he was a happy person. But now it seems like he's just dragging himself down even more, emotionally.
I really don't wannna break up with him, but he doesn't seem to want to get help, and I can't be around him if he's depressed and relapsing every week...
I'm trying to help him, but there's just this tension I feel, and we never see eachother often anymore. It's just weird...
Man I've never had to break up with anyone before... this is a confusing situation. But it might be for my own good. I can't have negative energy dragging me down....
I dunno, I guess I just wanted some opinions, if anyone took the time to read this whole thing cause i know it's quite the TL;DR..
~Verri