DOC#1217709
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 1, 2018
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- 17
So ive pretty much come to terms with the fact that for some reason, my life REQUIRES opiates. When im sober im fucking miserable and depressed, insomnia is my best friend, find no joy or interest in anything at all, just empty. And ive tried all the things u can name to give my life some sort of reason that i can hold on to, and it always comes back to the same thing, some sort of opiate. Now bevause of the stigma and legal side effects, my particular effective anti depressant is illegal, and a have willingly, mulitple times, put myself in prison over it.
So after three trips to prison and homelessness, etc, ive decided to only use those opiates that allow me to be a somewhat functioning member of society, and at least keep me from kicking the neighbors doors in while theyre at work.
First it was methadone, being tied to the clinic was a huge hindrance tho, so switched from 240 mgs daily of methadone to 300 mgs of loperamide pain free, with actually more of a vicodin nod added in there, to now taking anywhere between 300 and 400 mgs daily. However due to exclusive side effects of loperamide as an opiate (loss of ability to do any sort of task that is strenuous to my muscles. They seem to just refuse to function) and the fact that i now have the best job ive ever had that requires physical work, a job that knows about my past and still gave me a company vehicle to take home, i am intent on not screwing this up.
So theredore the lope has to go, but i am not naive enough to believe that the answer is complete opiate cessation, as id lose any and all interest or care aboit the job.
So in my quest, ive become very interested in tianteptine.
Can anyone with ACTUAL EXPERIENCE, preferably IV, describe the effects to me? Is it a legitimate OPIATE high, or is it "opiate like" like lope or subs?
Ive heard of the short duration of effect with the one form compared to the more subtle, smoother, more drawn out effect of the other form. My goal ideally would be to dose in the morning before work, and again on lunch, tho the need to dose is really not an issue cause i work solo in new houses, so privacy is not an issue.
I had an idea of buying both forms of it and mixing them, so as to get the rush but keep the contended feeling going a little longer.
Im wanting to know, will tianeptine provide that solid, unquestionable opiate glow that ive come to realize is an absolute must in my life, or should i just switch back to methadone?
So after three trips to prison and homelessness, etc, ive decided to only use those opiates that allow me to be a somewhat functioning member of society, and at least keep me from kicking the neighbors doors in while theyre at work.
First it was methadone, being tied to the clinic was a huge hindrance tho, so switched from 240 mgs daily of methadone to 300 mgs of loperamide pain free, with actually more of a vicodin nod added in there, to now taking anywhere between 300 and 400 mgs daily. However due to exclusive side effects of loperamide as an opiate (loss of ability to do any sort of task that is strenuous to my muscles. They seem to just refuse to function) and the fact that i now have the best job ive ever had that requires physical work, a job that knows about my past and still gave me a company vehicle to take home, i am intent on not screwing this up.
So theredore the lope has to go, but i am not naive enough to believe that the answer is complete opiate cessation, as id lose any and all interest or care aboit the job.
So in my quest, ive become very interested in tianteptine.
Can anyone with ACTUAL EXPERIENCE, preferably IV, describe the effects to me? Is it a legitimate OPIATE high, or is it "opiate like" like lope or subs?
Ive heard of the short duration of effect with the one form compared to the more subtle, smoother, more drawn out effect of the other form. My goal ideally would be to dose in the morning before work, and again on lunch, tho the need to dose is really not an issue cause i work solo in new houses, so privacy is not an issue.
I had an idea of buying both forms of it and mixing them, so as to get the rush but keep the contended feeling going a little longer.
Im wanting to know, will tianeptine provide that solid, unquestionable opiate glow that ive come to realize is an absolute must in my life, or should i just switch back to methadone?