Just on a side note, I have been taking etizolam for some time now, I buy 250 2mg pellets at a time, and have just bought my second batch, I only use one 2mg per day usually, 2 if excessively anxious, and on nights where insomnia is winning hands down 2 at night on top of 2 zopiclone will put me down for the night. Never had to go over 5 2mg pellets in one day and that was an unusual event for me, as the mean dosage per day is 2mg to 4mg, so 250 pellets last a long time with me, I hear of others taking heroic doses of this stuff and I don't really see the point, I get no euphoria, just a calmness, a slowing down of my thinking and a reduction in anxiety although am on pregabalin for anxiety as well, but still taking etizolam, kinda like my safety net, not quite ready to taper down and stop just yet. Don't feel like I have a habit as having such a short half life I would have thought I'd be getting some sort of withdrawal type symptoms and I'm not, even if I only have one a day for a period of time. Maybe I may not have too hard a time stopping etiz when I feel ready, fingers crossed. It should be noted that I am now on mood stabilisers as well (quetiapine) as it's pretty well confirmed that as well as GAD, Social Anxiety, Seasonal Affected Disorder, Agoraphobia, antisocial personality disorder (with a second personality disorder (borderline personality disorder), that I do not have depressive disorder but bipolar disorder, but am on anti depressants(moclobemide - maoi) as the depressive episodes are severe and potentially life threatening as suicidal idealisation is persistent and insistent, but Hypomania, while bearable at low levels, can be just as dangerous as the depression if the up cycle starts escalating into full mania. I have only felt euphoria from drugs twice in my life, but when My Hypomania is escalating I get all the symptoms you'd expect to get from smoking meth, Elation climbing to euphoria, severe disinhibition, hypersexuality, (my libido was always massive, but died for ten years being on the wrong medications and it died organically and slowly so I thought it was a natural course of events, a fact of getting older. Now I have finally started to settle on my new psych meds I realise I should have questioned that, as it happened at a far too young age (around 40)). All my health professionals know all my drug use and have offered to help me stop taking etizolam when I feel ready, and if I cannot manage to stop alone, or taper off alone, I just have to go to one of my health professionals and they will transfer me to a longer half life benzo like diazepam and do a very slow taper down. Again, even my psychiatrist (who we all know are vehemently against all mind altering substances without prescription. It's what they are taught to believe and most are very dogmatic about it, but they will (and again I have been assured of this) help you out of any trouble you may have got yourself into, despite their own personal feelings on the matter) has made me the offer of assistance to stop etizolam when ready to, in line with my other health care providers. I may be very lucky to have such an understanding team of professionals on my side. I hope that all of you find such understanding(possibly the wrong term here, maybe tolerant should be better) medical professionals. It's their job to get you well again, no matter how difficult the proposition may feel when deciding the correct course of treatment for you. This is Britain, and it's problems aside, our health service does it's very best to offer the best service it can with the money it gets. I for one feel grateful and have no fear of telling all, which is the only way for your physician to get your treatment right. YMMV but I hope you get offered the level of support I have been offered for when necessary. Peace, out. Doctors are people too and know just how fallible we are.
