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Venting The Vent/Rant Thread Vs. You Silly KnuckleHeads Can Go Fly a Kite!!

I have to poop.

Now I know I'm not the greatest roommte. But when it comes to the bathroom I'm fucking in and out. I keep the TP stocked. I keep the TP on the roll. I replace that shit religiously.

Get it? I need like (seriously) 2.5 minutes to shit. It's been like over an hour.

I get it, you want to be alone with your chick, but hey I gotta poop. And hey the fuck am I supposed to go out in this neighborhood on a saturday night searchin for a poop spot?

I don't wanna mess with your vibe but da fuck is this high school? Light it up tear it up. I'm a ghost (unless you need a high five afterwards).

Like I'm supposed to hop on the bus or go ride a bike in the rain with a tummy full of poop?

I'd rant and rave harder but cigs+adderall=good writing. But they also equal the need to poop damnit!

edit: so the bathroom door open means "bathroom open for business" door closed means "occupied"
 
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@Boupstarnm

Epic post. While I feel your pain, I needed that laugh...been a pretty shitty (see what I did there) day.
 
^yeap hahaha this made a laugh too :) Not cool not being table to poop!!!!
 
sorry its a bit messed up just venting

Well this is a real life fuck I have going on at the moment

Last Saturday a nonce convicted of child porn abuser/murderer drove past my house informing that the are going to very soon kill me and my kill so called parents and other family members

Then on Thursday at about 4.30pm a red people carrier drove by and let two undeniably guns shots of our side my house as going past

So as you can an imagine I am a little messed up at the minute as this is the same cartel that had me raped back in the 90s

Seems because they keep know paedophiles in there books that no one would stand up to them
And the have made sure that my past has come out in the way it has just so the can call me a liar and In retaliation to getting to do something vile again

Please this is not a fantasy and its not just me who are in danger of this kinds of acts

And by the way I am sick of been called a liar grass and many other things

Because I do not give a fuck as to your choices to stick his head up his arse to this sickening world that my family are connected to

Form a top dog pig in London basically running the met stopping me at every turn or the duggalby Contact with savilse Christmas party's back when I 2 to 6 years old

Then just take a damn good luck at the rest of them

Two dirty kids and a fuck up wife fits my so called brother in law perfectly as the anti nowhere league wrote it just for them

All I will say here is that I am finished almost its all the forms of abuse you can think of and one or two you may claim impossible like hypnotising us kids so we couldn't remember but that was the least of the things that happened our brains snapped creating selective amnesia form which I have been going through he'll with in the last few years

sorry for the darkness to this a nd hope you do believe my miserable life story is just as I've enlightened you to

How many of you had been raped by the age of 10 ? And then again and again over the next 20 years or so

Well the names are staying with me but the fact is its true I've no need to lie all it would do is get it done again and not prevent it so that's why I do not care the plan is kidnap toucher rape and in time ranging from maybe weeks to years the video will finish and I shall hopefully find a piece working in the depths of hell with ed gein and Joseph mengele in a hell depths just for the innocents like my self to work with the cream of the crop in mortal worlds scientific pioneers of sadistic now justified punishments
 
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I'm sorry to hear that foolsgold. I can only imagine how traumatizing that can be.
Hope you overcome this and take care of yourself kindly.
Best wishes.
Erik. <3
 
Everyone keeps using telepathy to fuck with my head and I have tried to kill myself by emptying two cans of starting fluid in my cellar and closing the lid. I almost died. Next time I am using 3 or 4 cans with a bucket of dry ice and hot water to make a good gas chamber.

These people won't leave me alone.
 
Tryptamine, medical support may help you considerably imo. There are meds that can help you with that.
We never know what comes after death, specially if you do it yourself. It could be an immense black hole and it could make you wake up totally disabled. And your life could be even worse.
It happens, I've seen it.

Besides, this might be a phase you are going through and this will change over the course of months/years. I have had thoughts of suicide when I was younger and had nothing to lose (from my perspective) but like most people we tend to get stronger and instinctively find better ways to deal with our issues.

Who are those people you are referring to?

I hope you get better, you have people caring for you. Keep posting.
All the best! Really.
 
Fuck you . I want to stop at Sonics and get a shake.
 
I admit I sort of fell in love in the woods this weekend. This guy was such a gentleman and we spent everyday together. Then last night we both sat by the fire and talked forever together. He was such a kind and gentle soul. I also ran my fingers through his long hair, but nothing happened. We were both too shy anyways. I hope we run into each other again, but he lives down in the dmv area and I live all the way up here in Pennsylvania. We did exchange contact info. Lol I am lame.. however, I am glad we met and he kept thanking me for making his weekend amazing. He was glad I came. Ughhhh I am also so happy I spent time in the woods and on such religious ground. The property has so much energy it's unbelievable. Call me stupid, but if you went there you would understand. We also walked through the labyrinth on the top of the mountain... and you walked long circles (while meditating) until you got to the center to sit on the ground in front of this altar. I felt a huge sense of relief. I also am glad to say that I am excited for what's to come... and I am also a year and a day clean from heroin!! One of the worst things to happen to me. Got clean on my 21st birthday last year because I couldn't believe I made it. I was supposed to die before I was 21... now I am a year older and much wiser/happier.
 
Oy! My mum is in ICU now - had a heart attack, my computer is in safe mode due to I photo being stuck and I am to drive to LA now, but my car is in the shop. Someone also stole my reg stickers off the back of my car. It's been a horrible day, but my mother is alive, so that's what's important. <3
 
Tryptamine*Dreamer said:
Everyone keeps using telepathy to fuck with my head and I have tried to kill myself by emptying two cans of starting fluid in my cellar and closing the lid. I almost died. Next time I am using 3 or 4 cans with a bucket of dry ice and hot water to make a good gas chamber.

These people won't leave me alone.
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Stay strong my brother! I went/Am going through the same thing. When I turned 25 years old I went btshit crazy, (it stops when you fall in love FYI) then I turned 30 got single and it went fucking nuts again. (Dude, get this, it's a government mind control program to get people to become well adjusted adults and to reproduce). That's all it is. Nothing more.

You see all these well adjusted people? They're hearing voices too. The only difference is that these assholes have submitted to the programing.

If you want some easy solutions, eat vegan, exercise and hold your breath. (I hate these suggestions, unfortuntely our transformation into adults is unavoidable but using these methods you can connect to people who are experiencing the same thing).

Like dude, I've been hearing these voices now for bout 18 months. I lost 7 or 8 jobs in that time period, lost my girlfriend, moved across country with no friends and my Mom being the only person I can talk to. I've been blacklisted from being hired in this community until I get sober and fast for forgiveness. (these adults who harass and annoy us also went through the same thing when they turned our age). Like unfortunately the programming is unavoidable. Totally. Like if you ever need someone to talk telepathicaally nd you're in the US, try either thinking boupstarnm 3x or dankstersauce 3x and I'll try and pick up the phone in my mind. (I'm fucking lazy though and you might catch me, ya might not.)

I came to this thread to post that I'm feeling "Jammed up" motherfuckers and their motherfucking rules. I can't get a job in this fucking community cuz I"m not in good standing. Part of growing up is seeing how everything is connected and if I fuck up in one area of my life this shitty little community will blacklist me. it's so retarded but aparently you either submit to the programing or have your social and economic life destroyed.

Like for real. Getting older is shit. I used to be able to take drugs and fuck slutty women...I will again. fuck this shit. I don't need no stinking job.
 
@Tryptamine and Boupstarm--no one can control you without your consent. The world outside of you is nothing but agreements that you are free to make or not make. Everything you do will have consequences. All it means to be an adult is to accept responsibility for your own actions and the consequences that come with them.

@Smoky--I am so sorry. Hoping the best for your mom.<3
 
^ 'no one can control you without your consent.'

Words that I repeated to myself endlessly for so many years.

Smoky,
I'm sorry to hear about your mother. Hope she gets better.
 
Thanks you guys. She is in ICU now still waiting to get a stint in. I appreciate it. :)
 
Sending love Smoky<3<3<3

Just went through this with my Pops.. then a triple bypass.

Shit didn't even slow him down=D
 
Smoky me too! Sendin you and your mom some ♡♡♡.

I think sometimes it's not good to be so reliable. People just rely on me so much at work that it's time to pushback!
 
I feel the same at work. The more willing I am the more I get.
But reliable in moments like this means that you are probably the best and safest choice imo.
 
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Stressed about finding a new place to live, I'm currently waiting on this landlord to get back to me. Word around work is that there won't be any promotions for a while, that's got me pretty frustrated. I know my time will come to move up but I'm really impatient. Idk though, these are minor things but I just felt like saying them.
 
Damn I'm depressed.

I know I'm really depressed when I see things on TV or hear things on the radio and I think of all the people that it took to create and produce a show or write a song or become a radio personality. I've done jack shit. I had WAYYY more money as a high school senior than I do now. I've done absolutely nothing with the last 3 years and it feels like I'm not ever going to get to a better place.

I miss el drugs de diablo


Bleh. I've jammed myself way worse than Jeremy Jamm ever could. Self-jam


I'd like to think I'll be in a better spot in a year from now, but I'll be 30 at that point. Fucking 30! I couldn't even trust myself anymore at that point, or anyone else that's over 30.
 
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^I'm sorry you feel depressed. It reminds me a couple of months ago, although I still miss being high.
I suppose it's under control for today.

But I do look at people working all around us and wonder how difficult it might be for some of them working around the clock whether in supermarket or managing their business 7 days a week. It makes me think I'm now working with better conditions although I have worked with basically everything you could imagine.

I guess I'm a lit impressed by everyone's workload these days and it seems crazy. Even in better conditions I find myself working some days for 12-14 hours and still feeling quite 'fearful' thinking what would I do if something goes wrong. At this point I think it would be much harder to start over. When I was 30 I'd never have to deal with that.

Even when things are right I'm always thinking it should have been better. Or that I don't deserve to be working and getting benefits as I'm now getting old, employed by a long time and having to compete with young energetic colleagues with nothing to worry, no children or family. And I think to myself that someday I will not be able to work as fast as I used to.

Sobriety came to my life and with that it brought me concerns that I have now to deal with every day. It's good as I feel better and conscious about my decisions and the directions I need to take but it makes me worried with just about everything.
 
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