ShroomySatori
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Thanks Shroomy? I appreciate you checking on me.
I'm not really okay but I'm alright. I ripped that hernia I have. That is a huge tear in my stomach lining so it lets fluid get into places it shouldn't. I may need to take some antibiotics but I don't want to take them unless I have an infection for sure since they hurt my stomach bad and make me throw up. So I'm watching for fever and stuff. So far so good.
Being right before Christmas, everyone is trying to get in to the doctor so the only appointment I could get was on Thursday.
I need to ask that doctor for the instant release pain meds. I don't know what I was thinking not accepting them when she brought it up. I was hoping I could make it without but I just can't. Things like this come up almost every month and then I am left short on my long acting pain medication. I just cannot go through cold turkey withdrawal in this kind of health condition.
The pain is really severe at times.
I'm glad you got some sleep and got out of benzo withdrawal. I know that sucks and I have only experienced it for a few days from 1 mg clonazepam a day. I know that you and D.J must go through hell with that. I'm sorry guys. Try to keep tapering minute amounts very, very slowly.
Good to hear you are eating well again. I'm not eating hardly at all and not sleeping well either. It has been too long of not eating, sleeping well. I have to do something.
Hope you and D.J are comfortable today and have a good day.
Thanks well you have to make sure about extra heath problems. We are so f*cked up we could get cancer or something and not notice like seriously. I am just looking out for you for once and by the way you are pretty much using your ER meds as IR meds now. That is good you need the higher dose, when you get instant release you should go back to taking the morphine (extended release) as usual. You should have both, to be clear, and instant release ones are way more abusable (since they work) and things have changed recently with that. I don't know when instant release meds were mentioned, but be careful bringing them up. Also, adamant that you clearly require them. It is no wonder you are in that much pain instant release is so much better.
If you have a sensitive stomach like that you should ask if there are sublingual formulations for any meds. Like if you are taking clonazepam then I think they have sublingual wafers. That is how I take my benzos because of stomach problems related to weed abuse, anxiety, and benzo abuse itself, depression, everything is connected like that.
Being right before Christmas is shocking to me. Family is big on that. I'm sad. Normally December 1st is a happy day but this year I have totally ignored the holidays. Maybe I can pull myself together I really don't want to be sulking that day. I am not smoking much weed anymore I just can't handle it anymore and it's bad for me like I smoke and start to cry.
Yeah if I ever got off benzos I'd need to get better at managing anxiety and also strengthen my natural pain system that I f*cked up. For now that is the one thing I actually need as a med whether dependent or not.
Sounds like you are stuck in a rut. I am as well. I got depressed again, and then I stop caring but this time I have cared a little more. I would like to survive the holidays (seriously) everything can work out fine I need a little more time. The first year seems to really suck. I'm just heartbroken about life. Cry every day now more than once.