Captain Heroin..
Are you okay?
I don't think I can make it today. I'm sick and depressed and lonely and suicidal. I don't think I can do this anymore I'm not strong enough I have to let these emotions win. It's been too long. I can't fight this battle with myself anymore. I just want to close my eyes and be done with it. I'm so tired already.
background: 2 years, 9 months@135mg/ml , 4mg clonazepam, 1mg alprazolam
situation: i am going to OD today, 2160mg/ml (2.1 liters) methadone and 40 1mg ksalol xanax, 5 2mg rivotril. please pray/wish me luck, i really beg of you, who understand my situation.
the reason? i failed already once at 810mg/ml methadone, 300mg 40% vodka, 600mg xanax, 50-70mg rivotril, 10mg ativan!
my 0.02.
I am having really intrusive thoughts
Even though my withdrawal is not as bad
I hope someone can relate, maybe let me know if it got better for them
Suicide survivor here. Tried to OD on a combination of benzos, alcohol, sleeping pills, opiates, and some other shit a couple nighta ago. My parents are making me go see a psychiatrist... what should I tell / not tell the psychiatrist. Id like to get beettter but I dont want to screw up my medical record for whatevee this guy puts down on my life.
I suffer from anxiety, depression, and panic attacks. Im also addicted to benzos.