I agree they have no recreational value. If anything, they limited the euphoria I could attain from opiates if I didn't dose lower than usual with the benzos. If you are having a panic attack the right dose would make one feel normal, a bit calm but nothing like knocked out. Since, I started abusing both a couple months apart, benzos first, going on 6 years now. I couldn't get into a pain clinic for 2 years, public health care. By then, I had already snorted enough heroin to be well on my way to long term dependency. I started having panic attacks too because the back pain was so bad I couldn't work anymore and I had a really good job, I lost a beauty country home vaping homegrow out of a volcano all day with my first girl life was great but that injury fucked me up bad. I could only show up in emergency so many times claiming I was about to have a heart attack before the intelligent resident psych instructed me to stop taking the seroquel (I was pharmacy hopping and taking like a gram a day, on top of booze to try and quell the panic and it wouldn't even) and to start on xanax 0.5mg twice a day.
Well that was about half what I needed and they cut me off after a month, eventually I ended up getting into valium ativan bromazepam and kpins, but for the longest time it was raw alprazolam and etizolam powder. Initially the alprazolam made me foggy, and the etizolam uplifting with the same anxiolytic effect. I eventually began to resent etizolam. It's short action, proclivity for rapid tolerance increase even more than regular benzos... like exponential opioid tolerance almost that ends up fuckin ya sideways. It's not anywhere near as sedating, and I take benzos to be sedated from feelings of extreme anxiety and if I'm having a daily panic attack which are hell on earth.
The long acting ones work best for me as I have chronic anxiety that never ever goes away without anything at all but benzos combined with many other chill activities like yin yoga and cycling and, if I ever get any again fuck. Getting irritated. But I switched to alprazolam from etizolam today and I couldn't be happier. I could take so much etizolam and hardly feel it. 6mg alprazolam had me overly sedated to function so there is definitely not a full cross tolerance. I'm getting way more past double strength from alpraz. I've used etizolam for a year straight since I ran out of money for better benzos and had that stocked from years ago, and pretty much nothin else. My buddy well versed in these drugs told me to be careful because if I used etiz exclusively for a while it would lower my benzo tolerance. I don't think thienos are interchangeable with benzos in full, I feel like I've been in mild benzo withdrawal for a while and also taking heavier and heavier doses of ritz. Now I'm taking normal doses of alpraz and didn't even feel like taking my valium today.
Also, I am noticing blepharospasms a bit. I am done with etizolam. Alprazolam lasts longer for me too, and it doesn't have that prolactin risk which always turned me off of etiz. And I heard you can get skin lesions from heavy use and I have had weird cuts in places.
