Speed - I like big boat. Good album.
Drchinacat, long time phish burn out here. Even if you yellow ballon your face off at set break with the phelowship, tour is no place for a junkie. Take some time off from seeing shows, get your life together and then go see some select shows every year when you're in a better place with your sobriety. I've seen this happen so many times with so many of my friends. Some are stuck in the addiction rut, some are dead, but most have their shit together and are completely sober and do shows in style with no desire to use. Those that have been successful with sobriety tour have taken time off from tour to get to that place. Just look at Trey, he needed a break, took it and now is playing like it's 1995 again.
I see you're pretty young, so maybe you need more time, but I'm just telling you what I've seen after over 20 years of chasing this band around the country.
Whatever you do, take care of your shoes.