I've just realised how much I hate the ego-consciousness and ego-games of this world. Although now I've become quite good at it, so in a sense I enjoy it. But it took me a long time to get used to and I just don't like the typical human consciousness state/form.
It can be fine when you and those you're with are in a higher consciousness state, even if it's because everyone are high, but I really hate the low consciousness states you have to be in as a human or be around others who are in. All the forms of negativity, from mundane/bored/joyless states to heavier negativity like anger and hatred, etc. It's almost like I have no patience for it any more, although for many this is just normal and they wouldn't want it any different.
I'd just like a long holiday from it, but I know the whole point of being here on Earth is to richly experience all of that, and see where what you have created here takes you next.