@Mafioso: Stay strong, you are doing everything in your power to change course. I am sorry that you have to go through this but do not let the whole scary and shaming aspect of being at the mercy of the court shake your own internal wisdom about yourself. You have worked hard to be where you are. No one in that courtroom has any idea. I hope it goes as well as it can. (())
I needed to hear this (despite my aversion to the patronising intro & that accent), as im terribly issuey with regulating self-pity. It's either blocked, or blocked. Leaving this here, incase anyone needs a prompt to break into it, to break-down and build up.