notselinakyle
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experienced drug user, but extremely skeptical on psychedelics? (2cb?)
EDIT;
SO I DIDNT READ THE RULES AND THOUGHT YOU HAD TO BE SWIMMING TURNS OUT THE RULE STATED THE OPPOSITE APOLEGIES FOR THIS POST I DID NOT KNOW
SWIM is new to this forum but has been reading it for many years as google searches tend to always bring her here.
SWIM has had this on-going battle with making a decision on psychedelic drugs, or perhaps even, getting over her slight fear of them.
Some background:
SWIM began taking drugs at the age of seventeen but with experienced users of three+ years and basically, went all out. SWIM has a history of mephedrone abuse. (Ingesting about 3 and a half grams every week none stop for about four months, then for another year but with lower dosage) SWIM has not done any psychedelics, but will state the substances that she has done for reference:
MDMA
Ketamine
MXE
MXP
Ecstasy pills (or just pills, SWIM is from UK and assumes they are the same as "ecstasy" pills)
Mephedrone
Cocaine
Weed/Alcohol/Hash
Xanax/Codeine/other pharms
Nitrous oxide
SWIM knows this background history may not be necessary for all to know however SWIM feels it is as everyone is completely different and some history info might help SWIY understand the situation better in SWIMS head.
SWIM mostly struggles with weed as she has smoked sprayed/amnesia or has smoked whilst still feeling the effects of MDMA/other stimulants and has almost gotten a "trip" - and in these times become completely anti social, insecure and introverted which is not SWIMS nature. After these events SWIM could not continue to smoke weed or even hash sometimes as those feelings of intense paranoia and insecurity would come back and become very introverted again so SWIM decided to quit. (Plus always feels a slight pain in left lower abdomen which may be a thought- up placebo)
SWIM prefers to take drugs where she is in control. (Hence the mephedrone abuse) And fears any drugs that could take full control. SWIM loves ketamine in slow doses however has had bad experiences with close to overdose/mixing with alcohol and being immobile whilst on the substance. SWIM has also experienced derealisation and depersonalisation whilst coming down from MXP which was SWIMS worst drug experience so this is what SWIM fears, above all.
SWIMs friends have all grown up with her and done psychedelics however SWIM is the only one who hasn't, as she has heard numerous bad stories from her friends, especially in regards to acid, and one of shrooms. However SWIM wants to experience true psychedelia and the other side of drugs which isnt stimulants/sedatives and amphetamines. Especially because SWIM has abused them to the stage where she only feels the negative effects on her now.
SWIMs main worry with psychedelics is one, the duration. If SWIM was to have a bad trip, she would have to wait it out for a long duration, with most trips lasting on average 4-16 hours (correct SWIM if wrong) - the second worry is being out of control, SWIM has a very strong sense of self on drugs and in reality, however has a fear of her mind not being in control. For example, bad thoughts not being able to be controlled. The third fear is the intensity of psychedelic drugs, and that there may be a possibility for them to "trigger" or shift things in the brain, or having one negative trip that change the user forever.
Of course if SWIM does decide to take psychedelics, she will do her research and be with people she trusts, SWIM is only 19 and does not want to rush.
SWIM is considering taking a very small dosage of 2cb this summer at a festival, would SWIY recommend?
Also SWIM would love to hear SWIY's experiences with psychedelics and perhaps any advice/different outlooks and perspectives!
thanku
EDIT;
SO I DIDNT READ THE RULES AND THOUGHT YOU HAD TO BE SWIMMING TURNS OUT THE RULE STATED THE OPPOSITE APOLEGIES FOR THIS POST I DID NOT KNOW
SWIM is new to this forum but has been reading it for many years as google searches tend to always bring her here.
SWIM has had this on-going battle with making a decision on psychedelic drugs, or perhaps even, getting over her slight fear of them.
Some background:
SWIM began taking drugs at the age of seventeen but with experienced users of three+ years and basically, went all out. SWIM has a history of mephedrone abuse. (Ingesting about 3 and a half grams every week none stop for about four months, then for another year but with lower dosage) SWIM has not done any psychedelics, but will state the substances that she has done for reference:
MDMA
Ketamine
MXE
MXP
Ecstasy pills (or just pills, SWIM is from UK and assumes they are the same as "ecstasy" pills)
Mephedrone
Cocaine
Weed/Alcohol/Hash
Xanax/Codeine/other pharms
Nitrous oxide
SWIM knows this background history may not be necessary for all to know however SWIM feels it is as everyone is completely different and some history info might help SWIY understand the situation better in SWIMS head.
SWIM mostly struggles with weed as she has smoked sprayed/amnesia or has smoked whilst still feeling the effects of MDMA/other stimulants and has almost gotten a "trip" - and in these times become completely anti social, insecure and introverted which is not SWIMS nature. After these events SWIM could not continue to smoke weed or even hash sometimes as those feelings of intense paranoia and insecurity would come back and become very introverted again so SWIM decided to quit. (Plus always feels a slight pain in left lower abdomen which may be a thought- up placebo)
SWIM prefers to take drugs where she is in control. (Hence the mephedrone abuse) And fears any drugs that could take full control. SWIM loves ketamine in slow doses however has had bad experiences with close to overdose/mixing with alcohol and being immobile whilst on the substance. SWIM has also experienced derealisation and depersonalisation whilst coming down from MXP which was SWIMS worst drug experience so this is what SWIM fears, above all.
SWIMs friends have all grown up with her and done psychedelics however SWIM is the only one who hasn't, as she has heard numerous bad stories from her friends, especially in regards to acid, and one of shrooms. However SWIM wants to experience true psychedelia and the other side of drugs which isnt stimulants/sedatives and amphetamines. Especially because SWIM has abused them to the stage where she only feels the negative effects on her now.
SWIMs main worry with psychedelics is one, the duration. If SWIM was to have a bad trip, she would have to wait it out for a long duration, with most trips lasting on average 4-16 hours (correct SWIM if wrong) - the second worry is being out of control, SWIM has a very strong sense of self on drugs and in reality, however has a fear of her mind not being in control. For example, bad thoughts not being able to be controlled. The third fear is the intensity of psychedelic drugs, and that there may be a possibility for them to "trigger" or shift things in the brain, or having one negative trip that change the user forever.
Of course if SWIM does decide to take psychedelics, she will do her research and be with people she trusts, SWIM is only 19 and does not want to rush.
SWIM is considering taking a very small dosage of 2cb this summer at a festival, would SWIY recommend?
Also SWIM would love to hear SWIY's experiences with psychedelics and perhaps any advice/different outlooks and perspectives!
thanku
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