Alright guys, I will start by first stating that this is my first time posting on bluelight. A little about my history with the website, I usually will search bluelight any time I get a new drug, or what to read about a drug that I want to try/ have already tried. I always get awesome information from bluelight, and truly enjoy the vibe that i get from most threads. Its not always a bunch of people shit talking eachother or trolling like most other controversial/drug related forums. Mostly referring to 4chan/reddit type forums. Anyway, I am trying to say I like this site, and because of that I feel inclined to post here.
And The reason I am posting in the Phycadelic section is because what has been happening to me all started when I took a high dose of acid. May not be high to some people, but it was the most I had every taken. I apologize if this is not the correct forum for my question
OKAY, lets get to it. Fuck it im going to tell you guys everything about my psychedelic history. I first tried acid when I was living in san angelo, Tx. Though after taking acid a multitude of time since, I believe it was a test chemical or something. It tasted really "chemically" and it made my mouth pretty numb. Unlike acid I have taken fore recently it was basically tasteless and no numbness at all. SO I met this guy named bill he was a co worker. And we were just chatting it up, I was the new guy and it was my first time spending time alone with the guy, we were pulling meat from the smoker. (I worked at a BBQ restaurant in Arkansas) and he asked what my dream was in life. So I told him what it was, and in a way still is. I wold him that my ultimate dream in life was to buy a school bus, and drive it around dropping acid and picking up hitchikers and getting into various adventures. All inspired by a documentary I watched on the grateful dead. In short this made us pretty good friends from the start.
Fast forward over the next year. I am buying a good amount of acid from this guy on a regular basis, I moved to a different job in town But we remained friends. Funny story, one day I was at my new job and I went down to the kitchen,(My next job was a restaurant at a university.) AND MY BOY BILL WAS IN THE KITCHEN, him and another co worker were both now employed for the same company as me working in the same building.
Okay im sorry I keep getting side tracked. Im going to get to my actual question now. One time I bought a bunch of acid from bill, more than I every had before, and I told him I hadn't really been tripping as hard as I wanted to lately, and I really wanted a "Spiritual" experience, witch I thought would come from alot of hits. So what he said it was , 1 of the papers was a hit of concentrate,(honestly no idea what that means) and the other strip he said was like maybe 4 or 5 hits he didnt know. But he said if you eat all this you will have a crazy ride.
So I ate it all, And the beginning was crazy I was seeing insane calydescope type patters and grids around things, at one point the entire ground under me was fading in and out of a hollywood movie wormhole type pattern. It was fucking crazy. I was smoking a cigarette and I was in flanel pants and it was hot outside. So I was pretty hot. Toward the end of the cigaret things started felling "not right" My vision started to tunnel, and my hearing started to go, peoples voices weren't really registering I was just focused on this crazy feeling, I started to panic and thought I was going to Pass out. the only other time I had this feeling, I was eating really spicy taco up in the mountains of colorado, and started getting the same basic weird feeling. And it passed, but every time I would take a bite of taco it would come back for like 30 seconds. So I Looked at my buddy and said, "ill be alright" and ran inside. I guess my facial expression was weird. I stripped down when I got upstairs cause i was feeling really hot. And I grabbed a bottle of water and started to chug it. I sprawled out on my bed having hot flashed and fading in and out of this feeling. I spent the rest of the trip in bed basically having what I thought was a BAD trip. Cause id only had really uplifting and amazing trips up to this point. So after that I thought it was a bad trip and stopped doing phycadlics for about 4 months
Fast forward to last weekend. Which was about four months from that trip. My buddy at my new job. said he got some mushrooms from an online site and they were called "penis envy" Ive never done shrooms but always wanted to. So he is a nice dude and a bit older than me, and one day i came to work and he called me into a room and threw a bag of shrooms on the table. I took them and said Ill have money for you later this week. He tried to say dont pay me, but I ended up forcing 10 dollars on him later in the week.
So its that weekend, and its time to trip. I decided to do it alone in my apartment, cause I had tripped acid alot alone and usually had no issues. Total I ate Three stems and one cap of the mushrooms, they were probably 3/4 inches long each, that was the whole bag. and just sat and waited. I started to get that sketchy "I think im going to pass out, I cant breathe im gonna die" feeling like an hour into it. FUCK I kept thinking, Why didnt I learn the first time with this shit! I was thinking about the insane acid trip where I swore if I survived i wouldnt trip anymore. I was pacing around my apartment thinking. "im gonna die" "I need to get out of this" "I need to make myself throw up" "I need to drink some milk" lolol. Basically was in that same thought loop for 2 hours or so untill the shrooms were so intense I just let myself go to the trip, and it actually ended up being pretty enjoyable at that point. but It was that same feeling I got when I was trippin on all those hits that I was feeling in the beginning of the trip.
Fast forward to like 2 days ago. I was hitting everyone up I knew for something to get me fucked up cause im dumb and bored. And the only guy that got back to me said that he had fentanyl patches 50mcg/h i believe is what they were. He told me to cut the patch in half and only do half, because I have absoloulty no opioate tolerance. I put the patch on before bed. and didn't get much sleep, and woke up the next morning feeling fine. So I went to work and I was on like my 3rd or so cigaret of the day and Right towards the end of the cigaret, THAT SAME FUCKING FEELING STARTS TO HAPPEN. So i act like I have to go to the bathroom and I run in the building. I basically felt like I couldn't breathe/catch my breath. the same thing, I thought I was going to pass out. And I spent the rest of the day freaking out and every 15 minutes or so feeling a wave of that same feeling.
Please anybody just tell me what you think. Maybe someone has gone through a similar feeling. Please anyone just help
and im sorry that was so long you probably didnt even read it.
And The reason I am posting in the Phycadelic section is because what has been happening to me all started when I took a high dose of acid. May not be high to some people, but it was the most I had every taken. I apologize if this is not the correct forum for my question
OKAY, lets get to it. Fuck it im going to tell you guys everything about my psychedelic history. I first tried acid when I was living in san angelo, Tx. Though after taking acid a multitude of time since, I believe it was a test chemical or something. It tasted really "chemically" and it made my mouth pretty numb. Unlike acid I have taken fore recently it was basically tasteless and no numbness at all. SO I met this guy named bill he was a co worker. And we were just chatting it up, I was the new guy and it was my first time spending time alone with the guy, we were pulling meat from the smoker. (I worked at a BBQ restaurant in Arkansas) and he asked what my dream was in life. So I told him what it was, and in a way still is. I wold him that my ultimate dream in life was to buy a school bus, and drive it around dropping acid and picking up hitchikers and getting into various adventures. All inspired by a documentary I watched on the grateful dead. In short this made us pretty good friends from the start.
Fast forward over the next year. I am buying a good amount of acid from this guy on a regular basis, I moved to a different job in town But we remained friends. Funny story, one day I was at my new job and I went down to the kitchen,(My next job was a restaurant at a university.) AND MY BOY BILL WAS IN THE KITCHEN, him and another co worker were both now employed for the same company as me working in the same building.
Okay im sorry I keep getting side tracked. Im going to get to my actual question now. One time I bought a bunch of acid from bill, more than I every had before, and I told him I hadn't really been tripping as hard as I wanted to lately, and I really wanted a "Spiritual" experience, witch I thought would come from alot of hits. So what he said it was , 1 of the papers was a hit of concentrate,(honestly no idea what that means) and the other strip he said was like maybe 4 or 5 hits he didnt know. But he said if you eat all this you will have a crazy ride.
So I ate it all, And the beginning was crazy I was seeing insane calydescope type patters and grids around things, at one point the entire ground under me was fading in and out of a hollywood movie wormhole type pattern. It was fucking crazy. I was smoking a cigarette and I was in flanel pants and it was hot outside. So I was pretty hot. Toward the end of the cigaret things started felling "not right" My vision started to tunnel, and my hearing started to go, peoples voices weren't really registering I was just focused on this crazy feeling, I started to panic and thought I was going to Pass out. the only other time I had this feeling, I was eating really spicy taco up in the mountains of colorado, and started getting the same basic weird feeling. And it passed, but every time I would take a bite of taco it would come back for like 30 seconds. So I Looked at my buddy and said, "ill be alright" and ran inside. I guess my facial expression was weird. I stripped down when I got upstairs cause i was feeling really hot. And I grabbed a bottle of water and started to chug it. I sprawled out on my bed having hot flashed and fading in and out of this feeling. I spent the rest of the trip in bed basically having what I thought was a BAD trip. Cause id only had really uplifting and amazing trips up to this point. So after that I thought it was a bad trip and stopped doing phycadlics for about 4 months
Fast forward to last weekend. Which was about four months from that trip. My buddy at my new job. said he got some mushrooms from an online site and they were called "penis envy" Ive never done shrooms but always wanted to. So he is a nice dude and a bit older than me, and one day i came to work and he called me into a room and threw a bag of shrooms on the table. I took them and said Ill have money for you later this week. He tried to say dont pay me, but I ended up forcing 10 dollars on him later in the week.
So its that weekend, and its time to trip. I decided to do it alone in my apartment, cause I had tripped acid alot alone and usually had no issues. Total I ate Three stems and one cap of the mushrooms, they were probably 3/4 inches long each, that was the whole bag. and just sat and waited. I started to get that sketchy "I think im going to pass out, I cant breathe im gonna die" feeling like an hour into it. FUCK I kept thinking, Why didnt I learn the first time with this shit! I was thinking about the insane acid trip where I swore if I survived i wouldnt trip anymore. I was pacing around my apartment thinking. "im gonna die" "I need to get out of this" "I need to make myself throw up" "I need to drink some milk" lolol. Basically was in that same thought loop for 2 hours or so untill the shrooms were so intense I just let myself go to the trip, and it actually ended up being pretty enjoyable at that point. but It was that same feeling I got when I was trippin on all those hits that I was feeling in the beginning of the trip.
Fast forward to like 2 days ago. I was hitting everyone up I knew for something to get me fucked up cause im dumb and bored. And the only guy that got back to me said that he had fentanyl patches 50mcg/h i believe is what they were. He told me to cut the patch in half and only do half, because I have absoloulty no opioate tolerance. I put the patch on before bed. and didn't get much sleep, and woke up the next morning feeling fine. So I went to work and I was on like my 3rd or so cigaret of the day and Right towards the end of the cigaret, THAT SAME FUCKING FEELING STARTS TO HAPPEN. So i act like I have to go to the bathroom and I run in the building. I basically felt like I couldn't breathe/catch my breath. the same thing, I thought I was going to pass out. And I spent the rest of the day freaking out and every 15 minutes or so feeling a wave of that same feeling.
Please anybody just tell me what you think. Maybe someone has gone through a similar feeling. Please anyone just help
and im sorry that was so long you probably didnt even read it.