So the title kinda sums it all up. I'm coming to y'all for an open honest discussion about this. There is such a big diversity of people on here with such varied point of views. Forgive me if I ramble.
But here's a brief back round.
I met this guy online and we live in the same town. He is awesome with such a good heart. I'm very attracted to his mind his body his heart and his soul. We seem to match on so many levels. We are what somewhere in between friends with benefits and a full blown committed relationship.
We hang 4 or 5 times a month. We talk about everything under the sun and I mean everything there has never been an uncomfortable silence. When we met we just clicked. We watch movies or whatever is on tv. We have dinner together occasionally and the sex is beyond incredible. The best I've ever had. No lie. The whole tHing is incredible. We fuck then talk for hours then fuck some more and talk some more until we fall asleep in each other's arms and spend the night together. This has beenfriBer for a little over a year. As my friend described it there is a difference between a casual fuck and long term fucking
He has commitment and trust issues from his ex-wife and what she did to him. I have issues from what my now dead husband did to me.
Oh yeah and when we are not together we talk every day all day. Little good morning texts and good night texts and how's your day and what you doing pretty much everyday and then we talk almost every night. And it is almost always initiated by him
So here's were things get sticky and awkward. I told him if we were to do this I don't want him dating anyone else and me either if this is just straight up fwb then it was a no go and he said I feel something more for you than just that and so we agree to this arrangement. I refer to it to my friends as a situationship. But like I said we've been doing this for a little over a year and I've Been enjoying it and I thought so has he cause he keeps coming around and talking and texting and everything all the time. If I'm just a booty call he's putting a hell of a lot of extra effort into it.
So a couple of nights ago we were talking and he was hanging out with one of his female friends (no problem I have male friends) he said her boyfriend was coming over and he said it was gonna be awkward and I said yeah I bet cause you don't like him and he doesn't like you and he said yeah and especially since her and I have been getting busy lately.
In my head I said woah back the mother fucking bus up. I said wait a minute you and her have been having sex. He said yeah I said when was the last time you fucked her. He said a week ago. (He came over just 4 days ago and fucked me) he said are you mad I said yeah I'm pissed and hurt. I told him I thought what we were doing at least meant enough to you to keep you from fucking somebody else. He said yeah it does but I mean I don't know. So I ended up telling him if you keep fucking her you're not fucking me and if you keep fucking me you're not fucking her or any body else. He said I'm sorry I don't know what to say I said yeah I don't know what to say either. He said we'll talk more about it later. I said alright and hung up.
I Texted him four hours later before I went to bed do you have any idea how pissed I am and how much I'm hurting right now. I receive a text from him the next morning saying yeah I have an idea and I'm sorry she is just a friend and that's all.
So basically through a few texts today we both agree we need to sit down face to face and talk about this. And it's gonna happen tonight or in the next couple of days.
He knows I want to eventually developes this into a relationship and neither one if us our ready yet but he has said that when we are both ready he's into the idea too.
I am so scared of this talk and what his decision is gonna be. If he says yes I want you more than anyone else and you will be the only one period then awesome let's discuss this out and be very clear on what is acceptable to the both of us. If he says either no I don't want to do that or he says I want to keep fucking you both (which is unacceptable to me) my heart will be broken and I am so scared that he will find it unacceptable what I want from him and move on and keep fucking his friend.
Am I wrong in being pissed and hurt. Did I overreact. Is what he did acceptable or not. Have I just been one big stupid fool this whole time.
Sorry for the long post I'm just so scared and confused
And thank you for reading and any responses are welcome. I want to hear it all. All opinions and thoughts with complete honesty
But here's a brief back round.
I met this guy online and we live in the same town. He is awesome with such a good heart. I'm very attracted to his mind his body his heart and his soul. We seem to match on so many levels. We are what somewhere in between friends with benefits and a full blown committed relationship.
We hang 4 or 5 times a month. We talk about everything under the sun and I mean everything there has never been an uncomfortable silence. When we met we just clicked. We watch movies or whatever is on tv. We have dinner together occasionally and the sex is beyond incredible. The best I've ever had. No lie. The whole tHing is incredible. We fuck then talk for hours then fuck some more and talk some more until we fall asleep in each other's arms and spend the night together. This has beenfriBer for a little over a year. As my friend described it there is a difference between a casual fuck and long term fucking
He has commitment and trust issues from his ex-wife and what she did to him. I have issues from what my now dead husband did to me.
Oh yeah and when we are not together we talk every day all day. Little good morning texts and good night texts and how's your day and what you doing pretty much everyday and then we talk almost every night. And it is almost always initiated by him
So here's were things get sticky and awkward. I told him if we were to do this I don't want him dating anyone else and me either if this is just straight up fwb then it was a no go and he said I feel something more for you than just that and so we agree to this arrangement. I refer to it to my friends as a situationship. But like I said we've been doing this for a little over a year and I've Been enjoying it and I thought so has he cause he keeps coming around and talking and texting and everything all the time. If I'm just a booty call he's putting a hell of a lot of extra effort into it.
So a couple of nights ago we were talking and he was hanging out with one of his female friends (no problem I have male friends) he said her boyfriend was coming over and he said it was gonna be awkward and I said yeah I bet cause you don't like him and he doesn't like you and he said yeah and especially since her and I have been getting busy lately.
In my head I said woah back the mother fucking bus up. I said wait a minute you and her have been having sex. He said yeah I said when was the last time you fucked her. He said a week ago. (He came over just 4 days ago and fucked me) he said are you mad I said yeah I'm pissed and hurt. I told him I thought what we were doing at least meant enough to you to keep you from fucking somebody else. He said yeah it does but I mean I don't know. So I ended up telling him if you keep fucking her you're not fucking me and if you keep fucking me you're not fucking her or any body else. He said I'm sorry I don't know what to say I said yeah I don't know what to say either. He said we'll talk more about it later. I said alright and hung up.
I Texted him four hours later before I went to bed do you have any idea how pissed I am and how much I'm hurting right now. I receive a text from him the next morning saying yeah I have an idea and I'm sorry she is just a friend and that's all.
So basically through a few texts today we both agree we need to sit down face to face and talk about this. And it's gonna happen tonight or in the next couple of days.
He knows I want to eventually developes this into a relationship and neither one if us our ready yet but he has said that when we are both ready he's into the idea too.
I am so scared of this talk and what his decision is gonna be. If he says yes I want you more than anyone else and you will be the only one period then awesome let's discuss this out and be very clear on what is acceptable to the both of us. If he says either no I don't want to do that or he says I want to keep fucking you both (which is unacceptable to me) my heart will be broken and I am so scared that he will find it unacceptable what I want from him and move on and keep fucking his friend.
Am I wrong in being pissed and hurt. Did I overreact. Is what he did acceptable or not. Have I just been one big stupid fool this whole time.
Sorry for the long post I'm just so scared and confused
And thank you for reading and any responses are welcome. I want to hear it all. All opinions and thoughts with complete honesty