psychetool
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 6, 2003
- Messages
- 6,186
This is a repost from my blog in 2017, and it's even more true today. Fuck rehab. I was a better person when I was on drugs.
"those fuckers convinced me to throw away all my phone numbers, now i've completed the program and i'm in a worse fucking situation then I was when I went in there... sick as fuck an noway to feel normal... living in pdx you'd think things would be a breeze but I'm a seemingly 'upstanding' member of society in that I live in a tiny fucking studio - nobody will even talk to me. So I sit around going crazy like a motherfucker 24/7 and eat xanax when my doc is kind enough to give it to me - thanks buddy, 30 four hour periods where I can feel like half a normal person... shit lot of that does me. Sure I can find some white, but that shit ain't for me anymore - not to mention I can't fuckin afford it... and of course they won't let you into a methadone program if you're not currently using - what a crock of shit. I basically have to go out and get strung out again just to get help ? the system is jacked up... if anyone is in pdx and wants to chat shoot me a message - could really use some support just to talk.... "
"those fuckers convinced me to throw away all my phone numbers, now i've completed the program and i'm in a worse fucking situation then I was when I went in there... sick as fuck an noway to feel normal... living in pdx you'd think things would be a breeze but I'm a seemingly 'upstanding' member of society in that I live in a tiny fucking studio - nobody will even talk to me. So I sit around going crazy like a motherfucker 24/7 and eat xanax when my doc is kind enough to give it to me - thanks buddy, 30 four hour periods where I can feel like half a normal person... shit lot of that does me. Sure I can find some white, but that shit ain't for me anymore - not to mention I can't fuckin afford it... and of course they won't let you into a methadone program if you're not currently using - what a crock of shit. I basically have to go out and get strung out again just to get help ? the system is jacked up... if anyone is in pdx and wants to chat shoot me a message - could really use some support just to talk.... "