al-laddin
Bluelighter
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I believe its chemical related. I used to believe all psychedelics where "the same" and effected everyone basically the same. Well, to my surprise and now from my tiny understanding of chemistry and how these compounds effect different receptors to different degrees its much more complex than what I initially thought.
I recently learned of a gentleman that got severe HPPD from tramadol. Yes tramadol, which is a synthetic opiod but seems to a have SNRI action. So I conclude that ALL psychedelics have the ablilty to cause HPPD. Of course frequency of use and dosage will have an impact of severity and how soon you may have it come on but point is I think any psychoactive substance even pharmaceuticals can have a semi/permanent effect on visual and emotional health. I don't think the two are directly linked as you can have visual issues with no emotional issues and visa versa, however we rely on our vision to maneuver ourselves through our world greatly. I think that any quick onset of distortion in ones vision can have a severe effect on emotional health.
Anyway Im convinced from subjective experience that psilocybin had no effect on my HPP but did have a HUGE effect on my emotional health. I used LSD very often before my bad trip but my frequnsy of mushroom use post HPP varied and I never put a cap on how often I used. I just used them when I was up for it. Mushrooms have ironically helped me cope through my emotional damage from HPP, to a degree where I no longer fear psychoactive substances albeit Im still careful with dosage and set/setting. I used to be reckless with this prior to my onset of HPP. Also Id like to add that my HPP seemed to be a result of an overdose of LSD which resulted in a bad trip causing a severe tramatic experience. My mushroom use had resulted in many bad trips, some very close or equally as terrifying as my LSD trips. In fact I don't find psilocybin to be anywhere near as recreational or "easy" as LSD. LSD was very forgiving and controllable for me until I reached severe doses. Im more likely to have uncomfortable experiences on mushrooms but Im also more likely to have long lasting symptoms from LSD even if the experience was glowing, as I now found out.
I was not diagnosed with either PTSD or HPPD. However I had all the symptoms of both. I was not "crazy" but I lived in an extreme state of fear thinking LSD could be anywhere. I even worried about canned food being dosed with it. I lost a lot of weight fearing to consume anything, flashbacks, nightmares, DP/DR was severe. As far as HPPD. I saw pseudo hallucinations constantly(holograms if eyballs and geometric patterns), my depth pereception was distorted, long tracers off of any moving object. Faces morphing in the sidewalk. This lasted years. I was left with some visual snow which never went away but it was negligible. Also darker objects appear "electric". Now I just have very thick static, and afterimages got worse, which actually appeared after my recent synthetics indulgence.
I recently learned of a gentleman that got severe HPPD from tramadol. Yes tramadol, which is a synthetic opiod but seems to a have SNRI action. So I conclude that ALL psychedelics have the ablilty to cause HPPD. Of course frequency of use and dosage will have an impact of severity and how soon you may have it come on but point is I think any psychoactive substance even pharmaceuticals can have a semi/permanent effect on visual and emotional health. I don't think the two are directly linked as you can have visual issues with no emotional issues and visa versa, however we rely on our vision to maneuver ourselves through our world greatly. I think that any quick onset of distortion in ones vision can have a severe effect on emotional health.
Anyway Im convinced from subjective experience that psilocybin had no effect on my HPP but did have a HUGE effect on my emotional health. I used LSD very often before my bad trip but my frequnsy of mushroom use post HPP varied and I never put a cap on how often I used. I just used them when I was up for it. Mushrooms have ironically helped me cope through my emotional damage from HPP, to a degree where I no longer fear psychoactive substances albeit Im still careful with dosage and set/setting. I used to be reckless with this prior to my onset of HPP. Also Id like to add that my HPP seemed to be a result of an overdose of LSD which resulted in a bad trip causing a severe tramatic experience. My mushroom use had resulted in many bad trips, some very close or equally as terrifying as my LSD trips. In fact I don't find psilocybin to be anywhere near as recreational or "easy" as LSD. LSD was very forgiving and controllable for me until I reached severe doses. Im more likely to have uncomfortable experiences on mushrooms but Im also more likely to have long lasting symptoms from LSD even if the experience was glowing, as I now found out.
I was not diagnosed with either PTSD or HPPD. However I had all the symptoms of both. I was not "crazy" but I lived in an extreme state of fear thinking LSD could be anywhere. I even worried about canned food being dosed with it. I lost a lot of weight fearing to consume anything, flashbacks, nightmares, DP/DR was severe. As far as HPPD. I saw pseudo hallucinations constantly(holograms if eyballs and geometric patterns), my depth pereception was distorted, long tracers off of any moving object. Faces morphing in the sidewalk. This lasted years. I was left with some visual snow which never went away but it was negligible. Also darker objects appear "electric". Now I just have very thick static, and afterimages got worse, which actually appeared after my recent synthetics indulgence.