tarman
Bluelighter
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- Sep 15, 2018
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I've tried googling this and duckduckgo'ing this, but have failed miserably. I got a new batch of what I believe to be heroin. However, I acknowledge it's probably fent or fent analogues. It looks good- it's brown and it's got a good vinegary smell. Everything good right? My last batch was much lighter. In any case, I insufflate only. So this morning I did my last line of the old batch. Probably .06 to .09 I would say.
At lunch I did a very teeny amount of the new batch, just to be careful. I felt like it was doing something, but when I say teeny, I mean it. Work over, I go home, and try little tiny bumps of the new batch every 15 or 20 minutes. About two or 3 lines in, my face feels flushed. I look in the mirror and it doesn't look as red as it feels. Eyes are nowhere near pinpointed, and in fact maybe a little dilated. I consumed one beer, and that's it.
In any case, I have had panic attacks before caused by a fear of a new batch. Which is stupid, because pounding heart and fight or flight isn't an OD symptom. I'm stupid I know. I guess my question is- i know facial flushing is a thing, and I know that my anxiety might be playing. The bitter ironic part here is that, maybe it's because I didn't do enough and am having some weird early stage withdrawal anxiety response. I dunno, I just wanted to get people's thoughts.
TL;DR: snorter only, new batch, brown sugar colored, vinegar small, very small test results in red face feeling and maybe like a heavy mind feeling? Any thoughts? So i probably just need to man up and do a more real sized rail, more like what I normally do. Waiting on a friend, so he can narcan me if the shit turns out to be whatever.
At lunch I did a very teeny amount of the new batch, just to be careful. I felt like it was doing something, but when I say teeny, I mean it. Work over, I go home, and try little tiny bumps of the new batch every 15 or 20 minutes. About two or 3 lines in, my face feels flushed. I look in the mirror and it doesn't look as red as it feels. Eyes are nowhere near pinpointed, and in fact maybe a little dilated. I consumed one beer, and that's it.
In any case, I have had panic attacks before caused by a fear of a new batch. Which is stupid, because pounding heart and fight or flight isn't an OD symptom. I'm stupid I know. I guess my question is- i know facial flushing is a thing, and I know that my anxiety might be playing. The bitter ironic part here is that, maybe it's because I didn't do enough and am having some weird early stage withdrawal anxiety response. I dunno, I just wanted to get people's thoughts.
TL;DR: snorter only, new batch, brown sugar colored, vinegar small, very small test results in red face feeling and maybe like a heavy mind feeling? Any thoughts? So i probably just need to man up and do a more real sized rail, more like what I normally do. Waiting on a friend, so he can narcan me if the shit turns out to be whatever.