nygiants1313
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Does anybody else do this?
What i mean is you clean up your act for a little bit lets say a few months. Maybe you are using suboxone how you are suppose to for 5-6 months. Or maybe you are literally clean as can be . You are working trying to save $$$ but you spend it on dumb shit cuz your not use to having any money cuz your a junkie, and just dealing with the everyday grind. Like a "normal" person.
6 months go by you are still employed but not saving as much as you though you would because maybe you have bills now, or whatever. Your car breaks down and your still driving the same piece of shit car , not happy, still craving drugs and nothing is getting better like they say it should. Sure you have a roof over your head , but fuk it thats not enough because you quit opiates. You made the ultimate sacrifice and go through torture everyday but you feel its not worth it.
And back to the drugs you go. And then you get drug tested and lose your job. The ultimate self destructive addict is back in to play . After you hit bottom again you clean up and do it all fucking over again and again and again
The cycle continues .
On a side note how many posts until you can PM?
What i mean is you clean up your act for a little bit lets say a few months. Maybe you are using suboxone how you are suppose to for 5-6 months. Or maybe you are literally clean as can be . You are working trying to save $$$ but you spend it on dumb shit cuz your not use to having any money cuz your a junkie, and just dealing with the everyday grind. Like a "normal" person.
6 months go by you are still employed but not saving as much as you though you would because maybe you have bills now, or whatever. Your car breaks down and your still driving the same piece of shit car , not happy, still craving drugs and nothing is getting better like they say it should. Sure you have a roof over your head , but fuk it thats not enough because you quit opiates. You made the ultimate sacrifice and go through torture everyday but you feel its not worth it.
And back to the drugs you go. And then you get drug tested and lose your job. The ultimate self destructive addict is back in to play . After you hit bottom again you clean up and do it all fucking over again and again and again
The cycle continues .
On a side note how many posts until you can PM?