jasperkent
Bluelighter
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- May 19, 2015
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^this^You shouldn't feel that way. I think you've internalised this idea that it's somehow a moral failing to take drugs, that it's inherently a 'bad' thing that makes you a bad person. But there's no society or time in human history that didn't have intoxicating substances. Even some non-human animals get deliberately intoxicated on various things. It's not exactly uncommon to enjoy altered states.
So now and again you fancy some, you indulge yourself, and then you stop again. You don't exactly seem to be ruining your life with it. It gives you pleasure but you're not letting it take over. (And presumably you're not stealing from relatives or hitting old ladies over the head to finance the stuff.) You should cut yourself some slack and allow yourself to have that pleasure without the guilt-trip.
After decades of self-destructive behavior I've finally gotten to the point where
I do drugs; drugs don't do me.
As always, YMMV