pandapandax6
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Dec 11, 2017
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im curious whats gonna happen because im gonna do it
i wanna live but i must kill myself i want help but help for my problem doesnt exist, life is amazing but i gotta die
pandapanda, would you be willing to share a little bit of what is hurting you? You don't have to give details if that is not comfortable but sometimes it even helps to write out what is going on. So many people here have been where you are right now. Despair plays tricks on the mind, convinces you that there is no other reality, installs fatalism and hopelessness in your every thought. Wanting to end one's pain is not only understandable it is life affirming. But you do not need to die to affect the source of your pain unless you have a physical problem that I know nothing about. Most of us get our natural born imaginations squashed by the time we leave grammar school. It takes imagination to find your way out of pain. What would you imagine as perfect peace for you?
A propranolol OD would be a really shit way to go. There's tons of ways to kill yourself but I'm not convinced that you really want to, otherwise you would've done it already and wouldn't be making this thread. Either way, why not try to live? Suicide is always an option but its a permanent one that there's no coming back from.
I hate my family n myself