I really need some advice. On June 19 of this past summer, I took a very heavy dose of MDMA crystals (I have no idea how pure or what else was in it). This was my 3rd time rolling and I was stupid and just took a huge dose (didn't even bother to find out how much I was taking). During my peak I got extremely overwhelmed and started literally gushing out sweat and I was so scared so I went to a medical tent. They said I was fine and after a 30 min awful peak i felt great and had an incredible rest of the night (I was at a music festival). The next couple days were hard. I not only felt depressed but just felt very disconnected from reality and weird--I couldn't be around people. This went away after a couple days, but now, almost 2 months later, I'm still having episodes where I get bad anxiety, feel disconnected from reality, and get slightly blurry vision. I feel like I did permanent brain damage with this Molly roll. Like I'll be with my family just eating a meal, and I'll just get this wave of anxiety where I question life and existence and am weirded out by even my own family members. These episodes happen a couple times a week and have been happening since around July 4. I'm really scared because I feel like I should have recovered now from the roll.
Should I just be more patient and give it more time? I also smoked a good amount of weed this summer (idk if that hurts or helps me). but I hate feeling like this I regret so much rolling and will never do it again. I'm worried this roll might have caused mild schizophrenia or an anxiety disorder or something.
Thank you anyone who took the time to read this and will give me some advice.
Should I just be more patient and give it more time? I also smoked a good amount of weed this summer (idk if that hurts or helps me). but I hate feeling like this I regret so much rolling and will never do it again. I'm worried this roll might have caused mild schizophrenia or an anxiety disorder or something.
Thank you anyone who took the time to read this and will give me some advice.
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