Should have hodl'ed till December for a fancier gift
Man, I fee like an idiot. For some reason I can't seem to vaporize my DMT correctly. I think I always burn it, or I was ripped off and got some weak stuff. But I had 150 mg left and a couple of days ago I wasted it all trying to breakthrough. Only got a mild experience which was frustrating. A weird "in between". I could feel it coming strong, a vibrating crashing-of-glass type of sound, then it wouldn't take off and just leave me hanging. Strong OEVs for about ten minutes and then a mild tryptamine buzz.
I had just finished doing Yoga, had no more responsibilities for the day and was feeling pretty good. So I spontaneously decided to take the DMT, and was determined to break-through this time (Previous attempts were unsuccessful). So after failing again, and in this weird psychedelic limbo I felt stuck in, my determination to confront myself with the void made me pick up the 5-MeO-DMT I had stashed away for a while now. So I took 10 mg of it and snorted.
Ouch. That things corrosive as fuck. I spent a few minutes trying to decide if it was going to make any effect or if I had just made a hole in my own nose for pure masochistic recreation. Whats ensued later was one of the weirdest experiences I've had. What an intriguing thing this substance is. Incredibly sedating, as I expected it to be. I felt an urge to lie down in fetal position, and covered myself with a blanket. Closed my eyes. Pure mindfuck. Nothing was making sense. It surprised me how it felt extremely euphoric too. I felt a warm body high, very pleasurable. Almost opiate-like. But that was just my body. Inside my mind, nonsense, madness. I felt extremely tiny. Then extremely large. It was almost like holing on MXE in some aspects, but really really different too. I can't compare it to anything else, it really is a thing of it's own. Started having faint visions at some point of the "trip" that I suspect was the peak. Music was completely alien, layers upon layers of static. But I suspect this was barely threshold because the experience was not very "defined", if you know what I mean. I came down from that and fell into a generic "high" after standing up that lasted for a couple hours more.
That was a little over a week ago.
I'm very intrigued by this substance and was planning to take more today. As my previous experience was not very strong, I was thinking of snorting 15 mg this time, but I'm unsure how the DMT I smoked before it affected what I felt. I don't know if I had tolerance from it, or if on the contrary, it made the experience stronger. I think I'll go with the 15 mg anyway, but I fear getting blasted out of this world. Ah, only one way to know.
