Hey PD folk, just checking in after a hiatus from a lot of past patterns, including computers/social media/Internet. 'Fuck Addiction 2017' is off to a great start. Sobriety is a hell of a drug! I feel like I am in the 'pink cloud' stage at this point, 6 weeks after quitting a 2 and a half-year affair with suboxone maintenance, a month since using any dissociative, and 2 weeks since a 3-day heroin relapse. Honestly I feel fantastic. I had 2 other meds adjusted a couple weeks ago, switched from Pregabalin to Gabapentin which was more of a bitch than I hoped it would be, but I'm stable on it now after the dose has been adjusted. The goal was not to be prescribed any meds that are controlled substances, so that's done. I also stopped taking seroquel after trying it for 3 weeks. It did help me sleep through WD/PAWS but I'm not trying to fuck with antipsychotics unless I'm actually psychotic.
I don't know how long I will sit it out before doing any more psychedelic or dissociative research, another month at least, but what I do know is that I'm not returning back to opiates for any reason other than serious acute pain. This is my 3rd time trying to stay off suboxone, and Ill be damned if this time isn't a charm. Stability is a precious thing. I do have to watch out for some things that trigger depression or self-sabotaging behavior, like 'the T word', so that eliminates being able to watch the news for maybe the next 4 years, and that's also why social media is going to be taking a back seat. I might actually be really productive this year!
Did I share my new album of music with y'all yet?
Http://vostek.bandcamp.com/album/geometridae