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That's one dirty ass spoon, mate
4 hours into Lucy but her sister looking TOO good:D
That's one dirty ass spoon, mate
3 meo pce is the closest thing to MXE out there. I love the stuff but finished off my small supply last night. It's a great drug for music and dancing. I danced for 5 hours at two different places last night and felt like I could have kept going but my friend I was with was not on drugs and wanted to go home. My energy may have been a little intense for her too, haha.
It was a great night tho. I had a nice cathartic cry during bird song because it always makes me think of Erin. And a really nice old hippy lady named Maggie, with long grey hair and probably my moms age, came and gave me a long hug and told me she understands.
I also met some Russian tourists and spoke with them for a while. It's always makes me feel nice to run in to other Russians and get to speak it for a bit because I don't get to do that very often in this town since they are few and far between.
Ended the night with some cuddling and watching the Grateful Dead documentary on Amazon. It was a good Saturday.
Now I'm hung over but in a great mood.
Some of us clean our bowl on a more consistent basis I'll have you know Call me the canna-snob when it comes to pipes and how clean they are.That's dirty? I can still see through bits of it though. :D
For me, MXE is only compatible with certain music, usually minimalistic stuff like Stars of the Lid or Boards of Canada. Conventional music ends up sounding tinny, distant and just straight up weird at times.
Some of us clean our bowl on a more consistent basis I'll have you know Call me the canna-snob when it comes to pipes and how clean they are.
If I'm chillin' with someone and they whip out a dirty ass bong with day old water, I'm like, 'nah man I'll pass, I'll just smoke some later' 8)
Kaleida, remind me later to whip out my old "DXM" playlist that was my go-to for dissos for years. Perfect stuff for the occasion.
I dunno, I used to not care, but it can get pretty nauseating sometimes with old water in dirty bongs. I'm fairly certain mold starts growing sometimes >.>
3 meo pce is the closest thing to MXE out there. I love the stuff but finished off my small supply last night. It's a great drug for music and dancing. I danced for 5 hours at two different places last night and felt like I could have kept going but my friend I was with was not on drugs and wanted to go home. My energy may have been a little intense for her too, haha.
It was a great night tho. I had a nice cathartic cry during bird song because it always makes me think of Erin. And a really nice old hippy lady named Maggie, with long grey hair and probably my moms age, came and gave me a long hug and told me she understands.
I also met some Russian tourists and spoke with them for a while. It's always makes me feel nice to run in to other Russians and get to speak it for a bit because I don't get to do that very often in this town since they are few and far between.
Ended the night with some cuddling and watching the Grateful Dead documentary on Amazon. It was a good Saturday.
Now I'm hung over but in a great mood.
3 meo pce is the closest thing to MXE out there. I love the stuff but finished off my small supply last night. It's a great drug for music and dancing. I danced for 5 hours at two different places last night and felt like I could have kept going but my friend I was with was not on drugs and wanted to go home. My energy may have been a little intense for her too, haha.
It was a great night tho. I had a nice cathartic cry during bird song because it always makes me think of Erin. And a really nice old hippy lady named Maggie, with long grey hair and probably my moms age, came and gave me a long hug and told me she understands.
I also met some Russian tourists and spoke with them for a while. It's always makes me feel nice to run in to other Russians and get to speak it for a bit because I don't get to do that very often in this town since they are few and far between.
Ended the night with some cuddling and watching the Grateful Dead documentary on Amazon. It was a good Saturday.
Now I'm hung over but in a great mood.
Call me the canna-snob
I've been doing too many GABAergics for a while now, which I've talked about here. Phenibut began it, I was taking it every other day with some multiple days in a row occurring, for about 2 years, and found myself with a physical dependence. I've been reducing my dosage and occasionally stepping down to an extra day between doses, and it's been challenging at times, but today is the 4th day (I've only done the every 4 days thing a couple of times, I was doing every 3 days for a long while though) and I actually feel better than yesterday. I also didn't take any etizolam to help me sleep at any time this week, which had been my habit for a while, etizolam on the 3rd night to relax. I have been drinking in the same pattern still though, my pattern with that is that I drink 3 or 4 times a week and when I do I drink quite a few beers, it coincides with hanging out and doing band stuff. I've taken stimulants (propylhexedrine) a bit too often lately still but I'm also saying no to the idea of that more often too. Part of it is that p-hex dramatically improves the lack of phenibut symptoms for a while. But I didn't have any yesterday and I drank lightly yesterday night, and this morning I feel pretty good, with just an occasional bout of anxiety.
So, although I am using too many drugs, I feel good about the progress, I have made rules for myself and stuck to them, starting with phenibut which is the only one I'm physically dependent on. I'm thinking I should just jump off phenibut completely, if I feel only this slight withdrawal effect on the 4th day, and it was actually worse yesterday, I think it could mean I'm just about in the clear. Next up is alcohol, I need to drink a lot less.
None of this stuff is causing any acute problems in my life, I've got my shit together, but I'm starting to get concerned about my health long-term. Also the state of being recovering from something (alcohol/phenibut/stimulants) almost every morning is really having an effect on my clarity of thought. I feel hazy a lot of the time and I don't like or want that. I've also got less energy and less desire to work out and get back in better shape. Slowly putting on a little belly fat, which I don't like either. So my goal is now clear, it's to stop using things excessively. I'd like to stop drinking for a period and see how I feel different.
None of this stuff is causing any acute problems in my life, I've got my shit together, but I'm starting to get concerned about my health long-term. Also the state of being recovering from something (alcohol/phenibut/stimulants) almost every morning is really having an effect on my clarity of thought. I feel hazy a lot of the time and I don't like or want that. I've also got less energy and less desire to work out and get back in better shape. Slowly putting on a little belly fat, which I don't like either. So my goal is now clear, it's to stop using things excessively. I'd like to stop drinking for a period and see how I feel different.
Good idea, man! That's what I've done, and it's crazy how quickly homeostasis brings it all back to normal. Then you'll start getting kicks from the normal stuff of life: a belly full of well-cooked steaks; a mile run in the rain, dripping wet at your door step with bright eyes, as you look forward to a clean change of clothes and possibly writing a new chapter in a work in progress...
Next up is alcohol, I need to drink a lot less.
I have an on and off relationship with exercise...
But I've found out that ultimately it's kind of a virtuous cycle. If you get your ass exercising and are able to make a habit of it then you don't depend on your motivation to start doing, I actually start craving it. But then life always gets in between, work load, travel, various situations, and if for some reason I stop, it's so hard getting myself to do it again xD. It's a weird relationship.