8) Thanks, w01f...Yea, as I said, how can I complain?
I do know this from his own words, when he's coherent...He grew his own weed for personal use back in the 80's, 90's, into early 2000's. He made his own pipes. Last year he sent me some Indica and one of his pipes to try. I had never used MJ, but I tried. I got giggly shit-faced a couple of times, but quickly found out that I couldn't function.
I asked him last Fall about trying the MMJ from dispensaries. They live on the other side of the country where it's legal and dispensaries are readily available. He said "NO...I've grown for years. It's all the same. It won't help my pain. Dispensaries selling medical MJ are bullshit for profit. What's the point?"
Well, I was taken aback and explained that I'd read good things about MMJ and wanted to try, to decide for myself. He blew it off as "I know weed from way back, and this is no different!". WRONG! Today's weed is not the weed of yesteryear. He was hard-headed and refused to hear my arguments FOR dispensary MMJ.
Fast forward to this Spring...He finished his Taxotere (sic), losing fingernails, toenails, hair and much of his vision. The chemo dropped his numbers, but almost dropped him into the grave. His oncologist convinced him to get his MMJ card and at least TRY the new strains of MMJ. His wife followed through to help him get his card. He was SO impressed, that he raved the praises of this "new shit". lol His needs are different from mine, as he suffers neuropathy and sleeplessness. He wanted sedation.
Indeed, his dispensary does PROVIDE...thank goodness. The dispensary was very helpful for him to get what he needed. Of course, he smokes it, so less problem for him. He has been very happy with the Purple Kush and a couple of others he named. I only remember the "purple" because of Prince!
Dispensary folk spent a lot of time with him and his wife, even discussing my pain/depression issues. He told them that I NEED to be sharp, focused and creative with my career. I can't be blasted out of my mind or nodded out! They suggested Cannatonic oil for me (inflammation, pain and mood lift). They even suggested MMJ enemas for my sick colon. I haven't gone that far yet, but if it would save my colon, HELLS YEA!
I should get the Cannatonic oil this week sometime. I wanted to try the RSO maybe, too?
The MMJ for him has been a blessing of ESCAPE. He's facing more chemo (and die) or no more chemo (and die). It sucks on every level. When he is coherent, he praises it for giving him the ability to "check out" and rest/sleep. He's having a hard time being "coherent" which is understandable. He's bought a vape system to make it easier for him.
The fact is...He's dying. I can't die soon enough, if I can't find relief.
It's a fucking shame that the world is going to lose such a good man, with such a big heart. He puts his friends before himself...always has. He has much more to give this world. I've only known him for 2 years, yet he is a brother unlike my own flesh and blood.
To those who pray...Please say one for my dear friend and his wife. They've fought this fucking demon called cancer for over 9 years!
FWIW, I believe the MMJ can help me on some level. I don't need perfect. I just need possible. I WISH I HAD EASY ACCESS to MMJ dispensaries.
I need to keep my job, my husband and my home.
I also need to take care of my 90 year old mom, and defend myself against the "opinions" of my 5 older siblings. They don't do jack shit for my mom. In fact, my brother signed a DNR illegally in my absence and waited for her to die. Not on my watch...not without a fight!
I digress.