It's still a very small amount which was holding you to a sufficient level. I don't know if you can take weekends off while doing this project of yours, but seeing as though you were doing well and had tapered to a very low dose, you could've jumped off completely and spent the weekend with a few sniffles.
There's no way I could dose a bag of gear in levels small enough to just hold me. I could just about use DHC tablets to taper/hold with as they have little recreational value even in idiot doses, IME.
It just seems you worry way too much about, what would have been, rather minor withdrawal symptoms.
Also, if you had a place of your own, do you reckon you would be able to resist ordering from DNMs?
You should rent a post box while you're living at your parents' house.
Well there was one particular element of the project that had to be done by Monday. I got that finished today, so I guess I can relax a bit (although I will still require to dedicate about 50hrs per week to it). However, there is also the element that my mum has agreed to financially invest in the project 50/50 with me. She did this as a goodwill gesture rather than necessity, but what she doesn't know is that I would not be able to afford what I'm doing
without her contribution. I have quite a bit less money in my account than I should because of the amount that I've spent on drugs. Plus, if my mum was to find out I've been using, I think it is likely that the gesture of goodwill wont happen... I'm starting to come round to the suspicion that I shouldn't be expecing withdrawal symptoms as bad as my butyr fent ones were. I based a lot of my panic buying gear decision on the basis that I couldn't realistically just happen to get another really bad case of norovirus/gastric flu. That would raise too many questions, in my opinion.
In regards to the "no way I could dose a bag of gear in levels small enough to hold me", while I see your point, that is why I am being careful with keeping it out of arms reach. I buy the more expensive high end DNM UK number 3. When I was using recently, I would go through between half a gram and 1g in a day. I didn't have time to get the miligram scales out this morning, but it really was a little 40-60mg pile of gear. While it has easily gone way further than 30mg DHC would have, I think you might be overestimating how much of a set back it really was.
Could I resist ordering from DNMs if I had a place of my own? I'm assuming you mean could I resist heroin, the answer is yes: I crave regular intoxication, but I like things other than opiates too like psyches and dissociatives. By living at home, I kind of get stuck with whatever I have in my stash for periods of time, plus I don't get much opportunity to trip, use dissociatives, stims (although I'm not a big stim guy anyway).... hell, I even have to be careful with weed. For whatever reason, my parents never seem to notice when I'm high on opiates. They're quite drug naiive so I guess they just don't know the signs to look out for, and generally speaking I'm pretty functional and at worst have nodded out a bit while watching TV in the same room and just blamed it on tiredness. But I can honestly say one of the main reasons I'm in this mess after buying the stupid amount of butyr fentanyl was because it was an affordable substance that would last in my stash a long time, which I could use around the house.
I've considered a post box, unfortunately the financial situation isn't as forgiving as it once was given that I have to invest money in something and am now unemployed.