ordinary mind
Bluelighter
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]j ilyu So anyone on the board that has been following my recent posts probably already has a rough idea of my situation. Following increasing binges on heroin/fentanyl analogues and the likes from between October 2015 and January 2016 I've been experiencing increasingly worse "minor" withdrawal symptoms upon cessation on each occasion. Somewhere around January/February of this year I began using kratom daily, which I soon switched to a 2 month period of daily butyr-fentanyl abuse. I detoxed from that several weeks ago now, and can say for certain that the withdrawals on that occasion were no longer "minor"... think 5-7 days of sleepless/inability to eat/pain/restlessness/the energy of a pensioner in the terminal ward etc etc etc. This all happened in my parents house while both they and a house guest were present, and I managed to convince them that what I was experiencing was a bad case of norovirus/gastric flu.
Fast forward a couple of weeks and my parents are off on holiday. Without a second thought I ordered enough strong number 3 heroin for the week (among some coke and other drugs) and 3 boxes of DHC to taper off with. This plan largely went without a hitch, save for the fact that the Friday before last I was fired for my constant lethargy at work (wasn't even on DHC the day I was fired... was told that because I was on probationary period I have no right to appeal).
So my parents were off to Paris the following Wednesday, and as I had the Monday and Tuesday booked off beforehand anyway, I decided to just not tell them until they returned.... and binge once more on opiates and coke in the intervening time. My DHC ran out on the Tuesday, and more heroin (and coke, and U47700 and a whole barrage of other drugs arrived on the Wednesday). So the Wednesday, Thursday and Friday were spent using a fair bit of heroin, as well as a bit of U47700.
Parents return late Friday night, and I tell them the news of my getting fired on the Saturday. They were so sympathetic that I can't believe I made such a fuss out of nothing. What a fucking idiot I am.
Any help or advice?
Problem is, as far as my parents are aware, I'm still drug free. I also have an open day at a coding course on Thursday which my mum says she'll help pay towards if I do. Great! Except I am down to about 2/3 decent sized doses of U-47700 and a single box of DHC. I also have diazepam and a little bit of ketamine for comfort drugs, and could easily obtain loperamide.
However, I'm not sure this will be enough. I've been using decent sized doses of U-47700 frequently throughout the day and I'm definitely feeling withdrawal onset symptoms (I asked my mum, who is usually always complaining about it being cold, if she could turn up the heating earlier as it was like living in a fridge... heating was on full blast the whole time). Also, constipation is no longer an issue, and appetite is not quite what it was... and this is still with strong opioids in my system!!!
Any advice on what to do? I obviously can't get another bad case of norovirus without raising red flags, and that would interfere with my ability to do coursework and attend Thursdays open day. The only opioids I can score locally are cocodamol and paramol, and there are a limited number of chemists nearby. I can't find any friends that live nearby that will let me order to their place, and my parents are clued up on drugs in the post. I've heard people mentioning bupe maintenance, but I' guessing that can't be arranged before Thursday:
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Fast forward a couple of weeks and my parents are off on holiday. Without a second thought I ordered enough strong number 3 heroin for the week (among some coke and other drugs) and 3 boxes of DHC to taper off with. This plan largely went without a hitch, save for the fact that the Friday before last I was fired for my constant lethargy at work (wasn't even on DHC the day I was fired... was told that because I was on probationary period I have no right to appeal).
So my parents were off to Paris the following Wednesday, and as I had the Monday and Tuesday booked off beforehand anyway, I decided to just not tell them until they returned.... and binge once more on opiates and coke in the intervening time. My DHC ran out on the Tuesday, and more heroin (and coke, and U47700 and a whole barrage of other drugs arrived on the Wednesday). So the Wednesday, Thursday and Friday were spent using a fair bit of heroin, as well as a bit of U47700.
Parents return late Friday night, and I tell them the news of my getting fired on the Saturday. They were so sympathetic that I can't believe I made such a fuss out of nothing. What a fucking idiot I am.
Any help or advice?
Problem is, as far as my parents are aware, I'm still drug free. I also have an open day at a coding course on Thursday which my mum says she'll help pay towards if I do. Great! Except I am down to about 2/3 decent sized doses of U-47700 and a single box of DHC. I also have diazepam and a little bit of ketamine for comfort drugs, and could easily obtain loperamide.
However, I'm not sure this will be enough. I've been using decent sized doses of U-47700 frequently throughout the day and I'm definitely feeling withdrawal onset symptoms (I asked my mum, who is usually always complaining about it being cold, if she could turn up the heating earlier as it was like living in a fridge... heating was on full blast the whole time). Also, constipation is no longer an issue, and appetite is not quite what it was... and this is still with strong opioids in my system!!!
Any advice on what to do? I obviously can't get another bad case of norovirus without raising red flags, and that would interfere with my ability to do coursework and attend Thursdays open day. The only opioids I can score locally are cocodamol and paramol, and there are a limited number of chemists nearby. I can't find any friends that live nearby that will let me order to their place, and my parents are clued up on drugs in the post. I've heard people mentioning bupe maintenance, but I' guessing that can't be arranged before Thursday:
Af he