Sickofbeingsick137
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Apr 28, 2017
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- 4
So, I'm new to this site, and need to post. My spouse is deployed, and I'm prescribed 15mcg Butrans patches for chronic pain. I too served and deployed to Iraq and suffered injuries. The addict that I am, I found a way to abuse the patches, resulting in my monthly supply from the doctor to be gone through faster than when I can get it refilled. So I'd wait a few days, then get 60 tablets of hydrocodone 10mg, but the addict that I am, they only lasted 4 days. I'm so sick of being hitched to opiates. I've been to rehab twice, but each time I returned home I overdosed within months. I have been sober for as much as seven months before, but I believe every time I relapsed I was experiencing PAWS, but didn't know what that was at the time. Anyway, I've had my last opiate on Tuesday afternoon, but decided to drink 1 1/2 big bottles of wine Wednesday - Friday. Obviously not a good idea. I'm shaking, running a fever, goosebumps, insomnia. Typical withdrawal symptoms. I guess I just need some motivation, and I just want to get over that curve (day 5 or 7). I'm not sure if the alcohol use just made withdrawals last even longer. Anyway, thanks for the input.