Hey Desp, did you make it through the day? though i think we may be in different time-zones - it's 1:20am in Victoria, Australia atm.
I'm doing well - I'm always on or off. I current pattern is 3mnths off, then a binge for a few weeks, then back off it again. You may wonder why i would get back on...yeh, me too. i have been using off and on since i was 16 and i'm 44 now. yikes - that's a long time. During some of that time, i would have years off, but it always draws me back. lately i have been taking naltrexone to help stay off. it works really well for me...but you have to take it otherwise it won't work (obvs!). have you heard of it? basically it's a blocker so you can't feel opiate while you are on it. I tried once to cheat it by using an increased dose (very stupid idea...this is how overdoses happen!), but it did nothing. Another good thing about it is that it lasts a few days in your system. so if you break to your cravings and decide to have some opiates..you have to wait 5 days to be able to feel it...in which time, hopefully you have changed your mind anyway.
so anyway...i hope today went well. hang in there :
Hey polly! Sorry i havent checked in. Its been a busy few days..my husband, son and I have been doing some yard work. College basketball ncaa tournaments have been on all weekend too...so weve been in front of the tv watching. The weather here in Ohio has been trying to warm up but its taking FOREVER to go away.
Sooooo... i made it to day 4...and then...i get a text at 7:30....of course. So i copped a few 15s. And then my neighbor (who always owes me ) thru me one. A fucking text....all it took. I know why i copped the 15s. It was a great price..i dnt even get high anymore...2 15s give me amazing energy! Soooo back to day 2. I dnt even want to quit....makes me feel like shit of course. I have to go right now, but i would love to talk to you more later.. hope you are having a good day! Talk soon