I've got all the support workers in place i could ever possibly ask for, and them getting desperately frustrtated at my apparent lack of progress over a whole year of just repeating cycles of bingeing and then tapering down only to start off again on some other opiate as soon as ive tapered off one thing or another, and the mixture of 'harsh truths' and more softly soflty approaches of posts on this thread has helped me get off them.
"The truth can't hurt you, it's just like the dark. It scares you witless but in time you see things clear and stark" (Elvis Costello)
I'm definately not going back to any form of pure opis, either hard or soft, (except perhaps for any wild poppies that might be growing in secret locations, but these crops if they are successful will be very limited and self limiting) and it seems that even kratom usage has a tendency to run away with itself, so that even knowing that it is possible to stop relatively easily if you dont leave it too long, and that it only takes a few days to start feeling physically and mentally ok, it doesnt seem that 'chipping' or recreational use is a viable option atm.