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I think I'd rather take benzos and have dementia than go without lol
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Without question. Years into it I'm developing serious problems with the formation of new memories. I wouldn't last a day without those anxiety meds at the moment though, been having trouble tapering off. I sort of have a week break where I could cut my dose, being a panic freak and all the best I will do is likely continue to stabilize.

Wish I never got into any of that shit but I understand why I did and sometimes still want to move more into and and not back out. It's a critical point as I had just started using needles when I quit two summers ago with the dope. Haven't dope it since but all of a sudden I am craving it like mad these days, 15 months later the cravings arrive for it. Would be crazy to go back I wouldn't make it.

Hit a quarter gram of blueberry just now, after hot yoga and a health vegan meal. I am not vegan, but think vegan food can be delicious. This was fucking amazing and I smoked a joint of some unknown kush variety before hitting up the place. Smoked blueberry in bong before morning yoga, but yeah vaping should totally be advocated for dudes. 100%, it's so much better. The only reason I don't vape is cause I quit for 3 years and got rid of my volcano. And my dab rig was confiscated for fucks sake it was beauty too and there was no reason for that. It's the only way I've ever been able to hit DMT efficiently too so it's like now I can't trip out on dmt with the method ingrained into my existence when I want to.

I think I'd really like a PAX. It wouldn't be a heavy hit like dabbing, but it would still almost definitely be a step up from bong. So I could drop the bong and before my tolerance rose get real high I bet. Also, I have to face the fact that I need to assimilate myself with the modern day world somehow. If I was working for a company I couldn't really take joint breaks all day I'd have to pay a monkey butler to roll them for me. That's the dream right there, for now it seems like my life would drastically improve if I saved up to get a pax portable vaporizer thingy. It is really sneaky and I kind of need to be right now, plus I would get high with that thing anywhere like indoors establishments the mall wherever.

But yeah my story about bong vs dabs is I switched to dabs while living at my last apartment. Cause the bong was pretty unrealistic lol. So yeah I took a few massivel low temp dabs to the lungs and got hit with a psychedelic headspace and was tripping out. Went out for a walk and in the elevator on the way down who steps in but a cop. I was tripping out like high school stoned seriously and had a regular conversation, this was long before it became anything close to acceptable I would have had my entire place searched if I reeked I think that counts as well yeah you know what I mean. They have reasonable grounds to think you have weed I think or some shit. Don't have to worry about that anymore it's just nice to be as high as you can possibly be around anyone you want. It's great in that way for family dinners, shitty relationships, and irritating bosses at work as well. As soon as I can afford that stuff I am switching, and then have a snake dab near the end of the day to get really high as if you hadn't been baked all day.
 
When my wife and I buy a home finally I plan to be in a legal state. If I can't grow weed, what's the point in being a home owner? :p

I also want an extra room where we can have nice things and our cat Pippin won't smash everything to bits. He's too curious. Adorable, but annoyingly curious. He knocked a pot off our fridge the other day and it left a gouge in the floor I'm certain we'll be charged for, the little bastard.
 
My cat is a vicious female, likes to hunt little creatures and is a cute calico. Demanding cat I want to throw that thing across the room when she meows but the damn thing will bite.

A fly has been following me around for a couple weeks. There are no flies here anymore, or shouldn't really be. It's way too cold. This one fly, there are two or three places where I crash and the thing follows me around. I looked up fly symbolism I just googled 'fly following me around' lol and it creeped me out Been trying to squash the thing I'll let it be. Always an annoying sounds in my ear when I am trying to fall asleep.

It is here now even. I looked up fly symbolism and being a hardcore etizolam addict and just totally mentally unstable, depressed beyond what I could have thought possible earlier in life, running out of both money and benzos, I'm not sure what it means but to keep aware. It's ominous and it makes me nervous I feel that it symbolizes death. I feel like when I get whatever message the spirit is sending me through this medium of a fly then it will stop keeping me up at night. Frost hit a while ago and it's always the exact same fly and always only one. The thing is driving me pretty crazy it's way too cold up here for there to be a fly and every night like this.

Rather put a hat on the bed for fucks sake.
 
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Just purchased some CO2 extracted CBD hemp oil: 2000mg / 20mL. That was the most concentrated I could find. Probably still not potent enough to vape, but at least I'll be able to experiment a bit with some CBD / THC mixes.

Also got a few more san pedro cuttings for my cactus garden.

Reasonably good shopping day..
 
Kaden_Nite said:
Also got a few more san pedro cuttings for my cactus garden..
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Grow some aloe vera, brutha! The plants look cool as hell to me, and I love how you can use the aloe straight from the plant to help soothe sunburns for my daywalking ginger self.
 
I've got some of my pots from when I was growing weed and will be using them soon to grow aloe as well as some cacti (succulents of some sort, haven't decided yet).

Growing is so much fun.
 
It's the best, man. I love stepping outside into a garden of green, man (and it doesn't even have to be weed!)

It's just relaxing, and then you start to think, "Well shit.... look at me, I grew all this on my own..." as you're sitting in the backyard surrounded by tomatoes, herbs, grapevines and assorted vegetables and lettin' your joint do a slow-burn while you get lost in thought.

So peaceful...
 
Yeah man I like to sundry hot peppers; habaneros, cayenne, thai chilis, jalape?os that turn red (they are always green here in stores). Big on gardening, once in a room I had a basil plant that I could probably live off if I had to. It was a bush, was trying to get the weed to have a basil scent, didn't end up working I would just sit there smoking joints and picking basil leaves to munch on.

Mid afternoon, going the the day without pot. Been craving it all day I get up real early so it's been a while and I sort of feel like shit. I'll never quit, hoping my tolerance can drop pretty quickly or I won't be able to smoke pot for the time being which means I'd probably throw in the towel for the rest of my days. If I was forced to quit financially or otherwise, I wouldn't start smoking again, as much as I love the stuff it has led to so many directly cannabis related problems in my life that are shitty people's stupid business and their personal perception of the devil weed, not mine I just like to blaze. I have so much resent I will never see it as legal being treated that way when I was younger and it was seen the same as other drugs to most people. Always wondered how humans could become so hysteric over it, even after reading a book on the history of pot which to be fair enough I was probably too stoned to recall every detail of.
 
ShroomySatori said:
Yeah man I like to sundry hot peppers; habaneros, cayenne, thai chilis, jalape?os that turn red (they are always green here in stores). Big on gardening, once in a room I had a basil plant that I could probably live off if I had to. It was a bush, was trying to get the weed to have a basil scent, didn't end up working I would just sit there smoking joints and picking basil leaves to munch on.

Mid afternoon, going the the day without pot. Been craving it all day I get up real early so it's been a while and I sort of feel like shit. I'll never quit, hoping my tolerance can drop pretty quickly or I won't be able to smoke pot for the time being which means I'd probably throw in the towel for the rest of my days. If I was forced to quit financially or otherwise, I wouldn't start smoking again, as much as I love the stuff it has led to so many directly cannabis related problems in my life that are shitty people's stupid business and their personal perception of the devil weed, not mine I just like to blaze. I have so much resent I will never see it as legal being treated that way when I was younger and it was seen the same as other drugs to most people. Always wondered how humans could become so hysteric over it, even after reading a book on the history of pot which to be fair enough I was probably too stoned to recall every detail of.
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I started a week off yesterday. I feel a lot better already.
 
tremours said:
finally went and bought a cheap torch lighter, i can't believe ive been doing dabs with bic lighters for that long. on another note i have a seedling going about 3 weeks old maybe, this one looks like it could make it
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I found a $20 pastry torch from a kitchen supplies store works amazing. I mainly use a dabber; I like how smooth it goes down. I got a Yocan R evolve which works ok. Live resin works great in it. Distilite doesn't seem to work as well and is hard to load on the coil due to its texture. I really like the 600mg vape carts they have here that have a tip like a black and mild. They are 60% cannabinoid content and cut with mct oil. I find it helps stretch it out and doesn't fuck up the taste much. The ones with the straight oil that comes in a juel pod burn it too much. It also gets clogged then you get a massive hit of burnt oil that burns the back of your throat. Neither are as cost effective as just buying distillate syringes or shatter packets. I was thinking about getting a pax but its pretty pricey.


Feeling great after a dab of clementine and banana kush.
 
My Iwatani torch has lasted me through years and several ounces of concentrates and it doesn't miss a beat.

Jibult said:
It's the best, man. I love stepping outside into a garden of green, man (and it doesn't even have to be weed!)

It's just relaxing, and then you start to think, "Well shit.... look at me, I grew all this on my own..." as you're sitting in the backyard surrounded by tomatoes, herbs, grapevines and assorted vegetables and lettin' your joint do a slow-burn while you get lost in thought.

So peaceful...
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I just planted some cuttings of some purplish aloe looking plant as well as some green ones. They started rooting in a day in the outdoor weather with some really shitty soil. It's crazy. Some plants take really easy. It is like meditation to watch them grow.
 
I procured some GABAergics. Well, GABA and another substance to allow it to cross the BBB with some modicum of efficiency. I (thought I) knew that GABA didn't cross the BBB for a while but apparently there are at least as many studies showing it does (though in small amounts), especially effectively, though, with certain other substances. Especially ones that increase nitric oxide. I wonder if viagra would have a similar effect when used with GABA, considering it mainly affects NO/how NO is transported and used within the body. Gotta be careful though, odds are the more good a GABAergic makes you feel, the more equivalent it is to basically just straight abusing benzos, or even worse, phenibut. We all know how fucking nasty withdrawals from that are, endless reports of people basically feeling like they're dying when they quit phen.

I read CBD was "discovered to affect GABA receptors" today, but am highly skeptical, it just doesn't really feel at all like a GABAergic. Perhaps it does to a small extent, but I doubt it's anything like taking what we could traditionally consider a GABAergic. If it truly is a significant one, I would be shocked.
 
CBD definitely helps with interdose benzo withdrawals and panic attacks, it's sedating, tones down racing thoughts and fear. Just tried it this year, wish I had some at the moment as I have a few hours to go before I will dose. CBD would help so much right now, not sure about GABA, I really should know more about that part of the brain as a whole. I thought THC affected gaba too, possibly indirectly.

I could never use it very much daily or the oil at all, interferes with THC too much.

Weed in general synergizes with benzos for people with anxiety imo. If I knew about CBD, valerian, more stuff like chamomile, kratom, kava kava I probably never would have developed a benzo addiction.

I find my doctor really irritating. I don't like being asked if I'm high at an appointment when I feel fine and she prescribed me it. The medical system here has been outright killing me with these health problems making them nothing but worse. They have had nearly a decade now. I would have been way better off never ever stepping foot in a doctors office or hospital emergency over chronic pain or a panic disorder. Was younger back then, and pretty desperate for relief I feel like they should at least give out a warning I didn't know what a benzo was and now I'm in a life threatening situation that I wasn't before and that will be absolute hell to get out of if I can. Some say fuck the 5-0, I say fuck the doctors.
 
ShroomySatori said:
I find my doctor really irritating. I don't like being asked if I'm high at an appointment when I feel fine and she prescribed me it
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I feel you with that. Problem with that one in particular is that the line between medicated and intoxicated is so fucking thin with benzo's, especially the more potent ones.
 
SheWasLvL18 said:
I saw some talk of torches and figured I would throw a lead out there to anyone. Bed Bath & Beyond has a creme brulee torch with a LIFETIME warranty. It's a complete rip-off of the Vector torch (popular for dabbing), but is half the price and includes a warranty.

https://www.bedbathandbeyond.com/store/product/bonjour-reg-professional-cooking-torch/1013057451
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That's the one I was talking about and love it. Worked way better than a more expensive one made by a paraphernalia company which ended up breaking.

Like others here I really need to cut back; been spending too much and also need to keep my head clear. I remember when a an 1/8th of good bud would last 2 1/2 weeks. Back when I was happy and had a social life It was more something I did with friends socially or in the evening/night to chill out before bed. I do need it medically for lots of issues but could afford to cut back allot; especially since it's such a world of difference when you have a low tolerance and take a small amount of spaced out hits throughout the day. Thankfully I got a bit of cbd which helps when cutting back on thc. Got 2 200mg 10mg/ml vials of charelets web. That shit really helped with my spascisity when I had to take an mri.
 
just transplanted a seedling about 4-5 weeks old, i was wondering when i should start worrying about nutrients and stuff
 
I think introduce them slowly, mostly nitrogen based at first it's better to give less than more sometimes if you use too much it can hurt the plants. Some are more sensitive than others. It depends on how much they have grown as well. I usually start at about a foot tall but yeah it's been so long now I can't really remember but those were the days. So yeah I might be wrong but you should be planning ahead already. Since you'll need an oxygenated reservoir, that is where nutrients can go. The oxygen in the water helps the plants.
Loved my life back then it's crazy how much things can change.
 
phenethylo J said:
That's the one I was talking about and love it. Worked way better than a more expensive one made by a paraphernalia company which ended up breaking.

Like others here I really need to cut back; been spending too much and also need to keep my head clear. I remember when a an 1/8th of good bud would last 2 1/2 weeks. Back when I was happy and had a social life It was more something I did with friends socially or in the evening/night to chill out before bed. I do need it medically for lots of issues but could afford to cut back allot; especially since it's such a world of difference when you have a low tolerance and take a small amount of spaced out hits throughout the day. Thankfully I got a bit of cbd which helps when cutting back on thc. Got 2 200mg 10mg/ml vials of charelets web. That shit really helped with my spascisity when I had to take an mri.
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It is eerie how much I can relate to that. I still can't quit. Woke up and hit the bong 5 times this morning. The past two days I made it until past 6pm and I get up at 4 or 5am so I'm getting used to not being stoned and awake which can be hell. I find that I'm stupid when I'm not stoned too. I don't drive with as much awareness, I can't think straight, I suffer nausea and a variety of irritating symptoms until the time I take that hit.
I also compensate when I've made progress with cutting back, probably a common problem. With the metabolites leaving the system I find it is quite drawn out, and my entire body goes haywire without weed for a while.

I always smoke weed alone now. Always. I'm a social person I just don't understand. It's the isolation from choosing to detox alone all year, I guess, since I can make friends easily at least I feel like I can. But I never do anything, I did not go out to a social event once this whole entire year. I really sort of just feel like a burnout now compared to before, I'm not saying it's the weed. I can't afford it and hopefully in the future I will be able to. I need to be ripping 5 tokes likes that every couple of hours.

As much as I'd like to, I don't think I could ever quit. Started fucking with codeine recently, I'd still be smoking the weed while relapsing for sure.
 
Ay, I don't mean to derail but what y'all think about this dude? I've been hooked on his music for the past week or so, and it's crazy because it's so different from what I usually listen to. Anyways, this the shit I mean (the last one a music video and it's for sure kind of wack, but the song stays stuck in my head):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1TJTGrpMTg

[video]https://youtu.be/IQTwsiTsfm0?t=52[/video]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2R5FNOEEGw
 
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