My hardcore and serious love affair with tramadol lasted about 5 years before it became out of control and I was left with no choice but to give it up for random and sporadic recreational use.
Love is affair is the only way to describe it, friend. I just swallowed some. Shaking because of withdrawal. That will end in about 45 mins.
I remember the first drug I ever tried was a mixture of amphetamine salts called Adderall back in 2002 when I was a freshman in high school. I didn't know what to expect. 20 minutes later I felt it. I was running around, talkative, confident, creative. Never felt that great in my life. A few weeks later I collapsed in gym class because of the amphetamine. Luckily, I had tricked my doctor into prescribing me Adderall XR, so I didn't get in trouble when drug test revealed amphetamines at the hospital. Nevertheless, I haven't touched the drug since.
I went on the hunt for a drug that made me feel as good as amphetamine and dexamphetamine. I tried benzos. Yuck. They just made me stumble around. Then I came across opioids. First one was hydrocodone. I liked it. But something was missing.
In summer 2003, a urologist found a cyst on my testicle. Was terrifying as we thought it was cancer at first. He said surgery would fix it, but didn't want to do it since I was only 15. He gave me a small prescription of tramadol and sent me on my way. I cut one in half and swallowed. I was not prepared for what was about to happen. At just 25mg, I felt so good I wanted to cry. I found my own personal little heaven. My own private answer to life. Wanting to hold on to tram, I only took it on Fridays. The script lasted until December. He gave me more.
This continued. I began to take it on Wednesdays as well. Then Wednesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays. Soon, it was everyday that ended in with a "Y".
In 2007 my tram supplying urologist retired and I was forced to find another doc and I did immediately. This is just a regular doctor and he is very willing to prescribe me tramadol. Thankfully, he is aware how addicting this drug is and that it causes dependency. I am glad. Some doctors still don't know.
I remember the first time I felt the withdrawal. I didn't know what it was. Was lying in bed watching a movie with my then-girlfriend. I felt ill. Very ill. I decided to go ahead and take a dose and noticed I felt much better. That's when I knew...
I am lucky that 7 years later I am only at 200-250mg daily.