stardust, i've been reading on you on the boards for so long, you feel like a friend. i'm really excited to read how you are holding it down. hero, indeed.
i would use it if i had it. i'm glad i don't.
roctsober steady.
It's been a while since I've been around, but I'm still going strong. We had a daughter on 9-13, so I've been really busy with all that.
9 months and 8 days, now. I've been spending most of my time, when I can be away from home, educating people on e-cigs. I guess it's better to have people coming to me for advice than what they use to come for.. Today, is my first day back at work after being off for at least a month. The shutdown has impacted our company's work, but at least I still have a job.
Love and kisses for all!!!
Today has kinda been a little rough.. had someone play the drug card with me.. I guess its nothing new and the references she used could easily have been attributed to active drug use i guess.. but also fuck her.. as after awhile you should ask first before you throw our some accusations as feelers or whatever.. and a persons drug use can easily be used as a scapegoat for all kinds of lifes problems, by the addict their family and people they know.. kinda funny how you are trying to blame drugs when im off them and now you're shoveling down the antidepressants, oh did miss perfect realize that she is a little bat shit crazy and decide to turn to drugs herself oh i see its medication.. so whats the difference between drugs and medication, oh someone told you to take the drugs so they became medication.. also dont forget your role in the very shit you complain about.. and the craziest drug users on earth, asside from the poor bath salt people, are people who drink on SSRI's absolutely gone from reality..
Also I'm really worried about another Blue Lighter and the idea of her not being well or possibly not around anymore made and continues to make really upset.. I really wish you would check in.. sorry about that post I made.. I didn't mean to question your courage.. I just lost it and fuck I was pissed.. love ya and you better be alright.
so anyway I felt like having allot of drinks.. but then I thought through that and realized that pickling myself would do no good and instead do allot of bad..
Day 50
5 days since I last used heroin.. still feel awful but getting there.
Right on, good job on 49 days!
It definitely is too bad that the places you would likely go to dance in a social setting happen to be bars, but it is awesome that you have the strength to be around them and have that perspective. It really speaks tons to where you are mentally in all this! Good job!
Very impressive
Day 25...my boyfriend's being incredibly unsupportive through all the W/Ds and really feels like I'm getting closer to relapsing with every second but hey, so far so good...