Day 46. Still feeling good. People keep commenting on how good I look, that I look skinnier. Must have lost a few pounds since I am no longer ingesting all those empty beer calories.
Had a bad craving day a few days ago where I was actively fantasizing about buying a six pack and imaging the taste of the beer. Got over it, obviously. Reminding myself of all the negative repercussions is what helped me get over that fantasy.
Still going out dancing, and have been offered drinks nearly every time, which I have easily turned down. Seems like the cravings don't really happen out and about for some reason.
But yay for almost 7 weeks!
I've also lost like 15 pounds of fat, can't complain about that. Probably also cause I've been exercising pretty intensely for the past few months.
I'm jealous of you though. I can't go out to bars and parties anymore. What happens is I see these people drinking normally and it just makes me jealous and think I can do it too. Plus it just reminds me of my old ways. Out of sight out of mind is the only way for me.
On that note.. Weekend night are the hardest. I just feel so alone. My girlfriend is off with our mutual friends drinking at a party. I feel like I have no sober friends. All my friends drink. Which is expected.. I'm a male in my young 20s. Only a few actually drink heavily too though, but still, being around people who have had 3-4 drinks doesn't make it any easier than people who have had 10.
But on the flip side weekend mornings are the BEST. I mean, I was blacking out almost every night for a while there but the weekends I just went extra hard cause everyone else was doing it too. No more hangovers is fantastic.
I don't mean to sound too down. Overall I am doing very well. Cravings come and go but not very often anymore. I haven't had an intense craving in a while. Lately it's more of a 'want' than a 'need' which is easily manageable, especially cause the 'want' is only there 0.1% of the time. I can genuinely say I am happy.
I was just checking in to see how everyone is doing.
edit:
The thing I'm most proud of lately is that I am learning to deal with my emotions and my reward circuits in my brain. Alcohol is no longer the solution to every emotion I felt, whether they were positive or negative. When I'm having a bad day, alcohol is not the first thing that pops into my head as a solution. I've mostly convinced myself that alcohol isn't going to solve my problems.
