Jackie: Good going on being 100% sober.... Amazing!!! VanWeyden: You reminded me of something a dear friend told me during my first time in recovery, years back: An addict/alcoholic will all have times they forget the misery of addiction and will want to get high again... that is why we go to meetings, no matter how boring ( or frustrating,etc.) we find them. They are like an insurance policy: they remind us of our early days, well, every time a newcomer shares, and we learn to never pick up, one day at a time. So, that is just one suggestion for keeping long term recovery...hitting some type of recovery oriented meeting, once or twice a month.
I had not attended a meeting for over a year when I decided that I could handle pain medication, prescribed to me after an auto accident. So wrong! I am still taking them, years later, although I had one year clean back in 2013. Yes, I am in pain, but honestly, I would be able to manage my pain with non opioid solutions if I really wanted to.
Now that you are into detoxing, do not pick up again!!! It simply isn't worth it!!!!