Hi
I need some advice or input regarding a bad trip on shrooms I had many years ago. Its not a trip report exactly but I think I have to describe what happened.
I had never tripped before. I took 1.5 g. cubensis shrooms and got strong visuals, specially shadows were moving a lot, faces melted, my hands melted. This was a good trip without any anxiety. Second time I took 2.5 g. and it was more intense, but otherwise quite similar to the first trip. It was also good without anxiety, though at one point while walking outside I had an uncomfortable sensation that the ground was a thin shell and not solid. Anyway this feeling faded away and the trip proceeded as normal. Very distinguishable come up and come down, almost like two different highs.
The third time I think I took something like 3.5 g. After half an hour when I should be feeling it like the two preceding trips, nothing had happened. We went down to the appartment of my friend who'd also taken shrooms and something like an hour more had passed and still nothing, like we'd taken nothing at all. We smoked a joint and a little while after that I had a horrible sensation while standing in his dark kitchen, like the fabric of reality was tearing apart. I ran into his living room sat down, and it felt like my eyes went into my skull. Like I was floating in black vacuum but I could see out of my eye holes like half a meter in front of me. At the same time I could feel my body as if normal. Other than this no visuals or anything shroom like. It was a feeling of sheer terror, I could do nothing but sit and try my best to hold it together. Most of all I was afraid I would be like this the rest of my life, like some ghost in a half existence. I dont know how long this lasted but it felt like an eternity, maybe an hour, then I started to feel sort of more normal, and then suddenly pulled back into the terror, and then better until my eyesight was finally at the level of where my physical eyes were. Once this happened the come down started as if it was a normal trip. In total this is the worst experience of my life and I had severe mental problems for years afterwards. I also had HPPD for a couple of years that luckily passed. While I'm able to function, enjoy things and have a job it's like I've never really been myself 100% after this. I've never had any psychedelics after, though I've smoked weed without problems.
Sorry to be a downer, but I would really like to know if you have heard about something similar to my experience? Did I take too much? Do you think it was possible I was given bad shrooms, like badly grown or rotten or something like this? It felt like I had been poisoned. Any input greatly appreciated.
I need some advice or input regarding a bad trip on shrooms I had many years ago. Its not a trip report exactly but I think I have to describe what happened.
I had never tripped before. I took 1.5 g. cubensis shrooms and got strong visuals, specially shadows were moving a lot, faces melted, my hands melted. This was a good trip without any anxiety. Second time I took 2.5 g. and it was more intense, but otherwise quite similar to the first trip. It was also good without anxiety, though at one point while walking outside I had an uncomfortable sensation that the ground was a thin shell and not solid. Anyway this feeling faded away and the trip proceeded as normal. Very distinguishable come up and come down, almost like two different highs.
The third time I think I took something like 3.5 g. After half an hour when I should be feeling it like the two preceding trips, nothing had happened. We went down to the appartment of my friend who'd also taken shrooms and something like an hour more had passed and still nothing, like we'd taken nothing at all. We smoked a joint and a little while after that I had a horrible sensation while standing in his dark kitchen, like the fabric of reality was tearing apart. I ran into his living room sat down, and it felt like my eyes went into my skull. Like I was floating in black vacuum but I could see out of my eye holes like half a meter in front of me. At the same time I could feel my body as if normal. Other than this no visuals or anything shroom like. It was a feeling of sheer terror, I could do nothing but sit and try my best to hold it together. Most of all I was afraid I would be like this the rest of my life, like some ghost in a half existence. I dont know how long this lasted but it felt like an eternity, maybe an hour, then I started to feel sort of more normal, and then suddenly pulled back into the terror, and then better until my eyesight was finally at the level of where my physical eyes were. Once this happened the come down started as if it was a normal trip. In total this is the worst experience of my life and I had severe mental problems for years afterwards. I also had HPPD for a couple of years that luckily passed. While I'm able to function, enjoy things and have a job it's like I've never really been myself 100% after this. I've never had any psychedelics after, though I've smoked weed without problems.
Sorry to be a downer, but I would really like to know if you have heard about something similar to my experience? Did I take too much? Do you think it was possible I was given bad shrooms, like badly grown or rotten or something like this? It felt like I had been poisoned. Any input greatly appreciated.
Good luck!